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I trust no one and keep getting mad n want to beat them but i cant

wooger

wooger

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but i refuse to hurt animals (hence no medication thats been tested)... what do i do??
 
Well, your brain has become accustomed to "animals are caring, people hurt me". Trust me, there's some people I'd beat before any animals, but truth is people are going to be people. It's in our nature to make other people angry. There are people that you can trust in life, they're just sometimes hard to find. It took me sometime to find the one person I can trust, that's not to say they don't hurt me. When you love and trust somebody, you give them the ultimate power to destroy you. Don't let one bad experience set you off from trusting everybody. Put yourself out there, I know you'll meet somebody. Maybe try talking to somebody if you ever feel that you can't control these urges anymore.
 
thanks for responding :) but the thing is now i am gunna go through benzo n effexor withdrawal at the same time.... but I hate testing on animals... so I cant o back o a psychitrist... so what do I do... just punch ppl?
 
Are you messed up right now, because that doesn't make too much sense to me. If you are...just post later and I'll respond. If not just please clarify.
 
You need some meds and help before you do something very stupid and hurt innocent people. fuck the animal testing thing, sort yourself out. the animals will get tested on regardless, sadly thats currently the cruel reality of the way the market works

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I just wanna die, hurting animals is so wrong, people are cruel, n I went from being a 1st uni student in economics to being a fucked up psycho, but I hate taking that stuff :(
 
you aren't a fucked up psycho. Fucked up psyco's have no thought or feeling for anything or anyone. The fact that you are concerned for animals shows that you still have your humanity. You are only a bit damaged and lost right now. You can find the person you once were but, not alone. Go see a doctor.
 
I became a bit fucked up at the beginning of uni.... then it just got worse and worse....I eventuallu dropped out cus of it... my university are giving me another shot but i am not as smart or motivated as I once was cus all i think are horrible/depresing thoughts :(
 
wooger, how are you feeling about going back to the university right now? Seems like a lot of stress when your mind is working overtime on getting in a clear space again.<3

Also, what is a DNR?
 
it's pretty normal to feel like that from time to time, like hurting people that is. is there anything in particular that people do that makes you want to hurt them? i totally feel like that when i go to work, if it's any consolation.

and don't feel crazy for not trusting people, it's not good to trust people too much. because 99% of the time, they probably will fuck you over in some way or another if you give them enough to work with. i know sometimes it seems like 'normal' people trust each other a lot, and get on real well, but if you take a close look at them, they're acting, they're just putting on a show. maybe it's part of maturity, growing up, i don't know. but not trusting anyone just seems to be a stage in understanding life, for some more than others, you know?
 
Oh wow, you sound like me in college. So here it goes...dry yourself out for a bit, not for ever fuck no, but a sober month. Then do what comes natural. Doctors can be awesome, but you might have already broken doctors for yourself. First step, eat something tasty and nutritious, second step, walk around and dry out. Third step ????
I was going to be something too, now I'm a 30yo produce boy in rural AR 1000s of miles away from any family, except my kick ass girlfriend, and her family, and the animals of course, we're thinking about starting a small flock of hens come spring time, if we can keep our dogs more or less sane about it. You know? I'm pretty happy actually making less than 10$ an hour in bum-fuck no-where. You might have a better future than me still.
 
Wooger, I'm so sorry to hear you are still having such a tough time <3

I'm really glad you are going to speak to a doctor.. I understand how you feel about animal testing, I feel the same, but at the same time sometimes we need medication and by refusing it, you aren't helping animals - you are just harming yourself, and at the end of the day you are an animal too...

If I were you I would listen to what the doctors and your psych team say, and let them support you and help you get back on track. It's a wonderful thing to care so deeply for animals, but not to the detriment of your own wellbeing..

Once you are back on track you can get involved with campaigning to stop animal testing, or with another animal-rights movement, but right now you need to take care of yourself before you can take care of anyone/anything else <3
 
@effie don't wish to appear a creep or something but I think your post is the perfect response to the OP. Good and sound advice delivered in a caring manner.
 
^ thank you, that's really kind of you to say so!

Wooger, hope you are doing okay <3
 
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