• The Dark Side 💕 Welcome Guest 💕
    Posting Rules Bluelight Rules
    Notable Threads Urgent Hotlines
    Bereavement Mindfulness
    Suicide Support Anger Management
  • TDS Moderators: AlphaMethylPhenyl | paranoid android

i tried to kill myself with ambien

not ambien.. i once took 60 7.5mg zopiclone pills. Woke up with a tube in my throat. Unfortunately that was one of many half assed attempts at trying to end myself.

I’m sorry you’re going through whatever it is that’s happening in your life that led you to make that decision. <3 My heart hurts for anyone that feels like suicide is the only option left.
I hope you’re able to find some form of peace within that leads to making healthier choices for yourself. You deserve it.
 
also, people have been doing this "gaslighting" talk to me, it really effects my mental health

  • Denial and Distortion:
    Gaslighters deny events occurred, misrepresent how they happened, or claim the victim's memory is faulty.

  • Accusations of Insanity:
    They may call the victim crazy, overly sensitive, or mentally unstable.

  • Invalidation of Feelings:
    Gaslighters dismiss or minimize the victim's emotions and needs, making them feel their feelings are unimportant.

  • Constant Lying:
    They may engage in blatant lying to further confuse and disorient the victim.

  • Shifting Blame:
    Gaslighters often deflect responsibility and blame the victim for their actions or problems.

  • Isolation:
    They might try to isolate the victim from friends and family, making them more dependent on the abuser.

  • Undermining Confidence:
    Gaslighting erodes the victim's self-esteem and confidence, making them doubt their own abilities and judgment.

  • Psychological Manipulation:
    The goal is to make the victim feel confused, disoriented, and dependent on the abuser for validation.
 
Sounds like EVEYDAY normal bullshit EVERYONE deals with...you are not alone , this is the bollocks of everyday life for everyone!!!
 
Life is change you cannot change if you stop trying. 30 years my mental state was that of a vegetable. I couldn’t make a minor decision for fear of something catastrophic happening. It was no way to live I wanted to end pain without actually dying. I hung in there even though my future was bleak.
In 2005 I had another psychotic break and was committed by my wife to spend 15 days in the psych ward.
I had a private room across from the nurses station because I was too unstable to share a room with another patient. It was really very nice to have my own bathroom and shower.
Medication was reevaluated and got my shit together enough to work and go to college part time. I did very well in college, dean’s list I graduated with honors all the while gainfully employed.
If my life ended before I had a chance to do something with it…well no one can predict the future.
You may actually do something important in life but you will never know if you do yourself in. Who knows, your contribution may change the world?
I have a request, will you figure out a way to trip while taking antipsychotics?
 
You must log in or register to reply here.
Top