I took a walk

[cherub]

I take a walk
and my mind starts reeling
past me and I think
as I close my eyes
and I can feel you near
my heart jumping a beat
my pulse rising
I speak to you things
that I could not tell
others.
My tongue lets the words flow
I try and stop it
I keep thinking
that once again
this will be a mistake
But let go anyway,
My head tumbles
to the left and right
trying to shake the feeling,
hoping to find solence in it all
I can get through this
I can let it go, can I not?
I walked farther and think deeper
Your so far away, so untouchable
me i am to careful,
i step on little pebbles
that brusie my feet and mind,
waiting patiently for either
fine sand or the jaded rock
I find neither just endless pebbles
vast open space
For my feet and mind to roam
I want to touch you
Not just with my mind,
but with my heart and soul
I want my feet to lead me
to the soothing sand
and my heart to a home
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Just takes one angel to change a life
~~~~CHERUB~~~~
Aka: Mommyhen

 

[CARESS]

This is so beautiful. I know how it feels to come to a point of crossroads. You (and your heart) will find a home. I miss you, my sister!

Love,
Caress

 

[Zennie]

It must be the mother daughter bond thing, because you nailed it! Totally. *hugs and kisses*
love,
Zen

 

[haste]

Very beautiful cherub

We all go through so many stages in our lives and at certain points we reach crossroads...."and then what" we say. We are am I going, what am I doing, where should I be going and where would I like to be....and whether you like it or not there is also the question of who am I? As much a you think you know yourself and you think you are comfortable with who you are - one must face reality that we are constantly looking within. With every passing momment we are changing, and with every passing experience our mould is slightly (and in many occasions radically) altered. I really feel for you and the confusion you might be feeling. I understand the longing you have for your to belong. Many a times I have been at these pivitol points in my life.
It's a this point that I look at myself and say - who are you? what do you want? and where are you going? I find with myself that I always have the need to feel that my life needs to be going somewhere and that it must have some meaning and purpose. Alot of this thought has been drummed into me from my upbringing - parents, frineds and society as a whole. I look around and see my friends, all married, kids, successful careers, all in direct competition with themselves and they don't know it - how do I know this, I was there myself (as you already know). It's when you step out of the circle and look in that you realise whats going on. And that's when I break myself out of that chain of thought.
There is no easy solution - but for me I have found peace, it's my contentment with my life that has given me peace. I have wants and needs like everybody, but I do not let them run my life. I thanks God for what I do have and not focus on what I don't. Live your life and ejoy the wonderful journey it can be - you have more control over it then you think. Many people will come onto your life that will fill different spots in your heart - focus on tha many people you can meet rather than the one person. I don't know if this helps - it's something that I do.
Cheer up and I promise everything will be fine - someone with a wonderful heart as yours will be truly blessed. I can see just through bluelight how many people you have touched!!!

p.s. if all else fail there is always Earthcore at NYE here in Australia - five days of pure heaven hehehehe...ok ok ok I'll shut up about it hehehe

Luv Ya
Haste
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Careful with that axe Eugene.....

 

[cherub]

Caress,, I love you sis,, and I am so glad I have you in my life, you are strength to me.
And I always hope to be a strength for you.
(((((( hugs)))))))) thank you so much for being there for me !
Zennie-We both know we formed a bond before we met and meeting only made it stronger !
And yes we will have more time to talk , you know i am always there for you no matter what
We all really have a home here in bluelight,,, but i realized one thing tonight,, It is not that I don't have a home,,, it just i found one this last weekend and I miss it so much,, it kinda made me feel lost,,, i am sure you felt the same,
your always in my thoughts and in my heart child, you so special and adoring !
Haste, your words are so comforting our sharing in your experience to me. I been this road before,, easier now then before, but still a difficult time. You always have such sweet and the most expressive thoughts, I adore you completely,
luv ya hun
i am making it I am walking through my steps and i will get there
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Just takes one angel to change a life
~~~~CHERUB~~~~
Aka: Mommyhen

 

[Slamed]

Nicely Done .... I must say you have the ability to put to words what most of us are thinking ... Keep it up
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For the moment is only here for now ... 1 minute may be 59 seconds too late ... Let the ones you Luv know

 

[Angelight]

*siffle sniffle*
how can one be more on the head???
i miss u...
much love
angel

 

[poezante]

very much luve this one.. great!
::muah::
-poe