I thouth time would change things - I thought that things would change...

[Cosmic Mist]

This continues on from my last post A fraction of the Emotions i have felt this evening...

So now here i sit and stare blancly into space -
i know you're gone.
I know there is a distance between us,
although only physically,
because emotionally we're still as close as we ever were.

But now you return to your boy,
and i will grow closer to mine -
each day we spend so far apart
it seems that our lives become less intertwined,
yet secretly i know this is not true,
and it kills me,
because i have one fo the most beautiful men i have ever met
to call my very own,
and i dont' want to ruin what i now share with him
because i so stupidly can't forget you.

I still love you.
You know i always will.

Buti think i have to move on now,
i have to say that enough is enough:
two years of suffering in vain for you is enough;
two years of watching you move away is enough;
two years of driving myself insane for you is enough;
two years of being alone is more than enough...

So i'm going to grab this opportunity with both hands
and relish it with all i have
because this man shows me the true affection that i long for,
that i crave,
that i have never had with anyone...

except you...

It hurts to say this,
but,
i don't think that i want the comfort of your arms anymore.
I don't think i need you to tell me that i am beautiful,
that you love me,
that you need me...
I think i was stuck in a hard place and just didn't want to leave it - no one made me feel the need to,
no one seemed to compare to you.

Now i have someone who makes me feel happy again,
andi'm no longer crying behind the wheel - i'm singing!
I'm no longer racing taxis in the middle of the night to escape from the dreadful loneliness haunting me - i'm fast asleep in the arms of a beautiful person who cares deeply for me...

... and i no longer desire you from afar...

..at last i am moving on.

So i'm sorry i hurt you, andleft you in an awkward place. I will always love you and hold you dear to me, but for now, i guess we will be separate.

Somedays only come once, but maybe somedays come again...

Sorryfor the last line, i've been listening to the cure too much recently...

 

[harraser]

<-- happy smile.

you know my thoughts on this. i dont need to repeat them. *huggles*

 

[bisKi]

no matter what they say, hurt never really heals with time, only eases little by little.

It hurts to say this,
but,
i don't think that i want the comfort of your arms anymore.
I don't think i need you to tell me that i am beautiful,
that you love me,
that you need me...
I think i was stuck in a hard place and just didn't want to leave it - no one made me feel the need to,
no one seemed to compare to you.

It takes a lot to admit that to oneself, hell I'm still trying to and I admire you for that. Glad things are working out, Misty and good work

 

[neverwas]

I still love you.
You know i always will.

Buti think i have to move on now,
i have to say that enough is enough:
two years of suffering in vain for you is enough;
two years of watching you move away is enough;
two years of driving myself insane for you is enough;
two years of being alone is more than enough...

hun im not going to say much either cause u know what i think...i love your writting hun.its very emotional and i feel so easily through it...

dani u know i love you and am her for u. kel