TDS I think I've made a huge mistake

[Swimmingdancer]

So I ended up going back home to Paris last night and spent the night in the hospital with my dad. We spoke for hours and I basically just told him what I feel I needed to - I was completely honest about hesitating to come see him, about how much he'd hurt me and how much I resented him for it etc etc. It was pretty intense but once that whole part was over we just chatted about random stuff for a while and it was really nice, hadn't had a talk like that with him in years. I'm really really happy I went to see him and was able to tell him everything...I think we both needed it.
Anyway I ended up coming back to London this morning because I just can't afford to miss any classes and because I just can't do hospitals anymore. I just got a text from my mom saying he's doing better and he might actually be able to go home in a few days...so it looks like there isn't necessarily as much reason to panic as we originally thought. In any case I'm just happy I got everything off my chest and I'll have at least one good memory of him now. Thanks again for the advice everyone

I'm really glad it worked out that way and that you were able to get some things off your chest and do some civil chatting as well Hugs

 

[vibrancy3]

Hope things work out pagey and it would be an idea to arrange a trip to see your dad sometime or have some communication. Sometimes i feel alienated living in a city and feel the need to get back to my hometown (i am sure everyone feels like that one way or another in life and with the decisions they made)

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Nono I meant dream as in fantasising.

So I ended up going back home to Paris last night and spent the night in the hospital with my dad. We spoke for hours and I basically just told him what I feel I needed to - I was completely honest about hesitating to come see him, about how much he'd hurt me and how much I resented him for it etc etc. It was pretty intense but once that whole part was over we just chatted about random stuff for a while and it was really nice, hadn't had a talk like that with him in years. I'm really really happy I went to see him and was able to tell him everything...I think we both needed it.
Anyway I ended up coming back to London this morning because I just can't afford to miss any classes and because I just can't do hospitals anymore. I just got a text from my mom saying he's doing better and he might actually be able to go home in a few days...so it looks like there isn't necessarily as much reason to panic as we originally thought. In any case I'm just happy I got everything off my chest and I'll have at least one good memory of him now. Thanks again for the advice everyone

I'm really glad you feel you made the best decision Pagey.