Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
Hiya,
I met a friend I've been in contact with for a year she has basically been my rock n I care for her so very much. Anyway lately I'm not sure whether to trust her. I have trust issues because so many people have been nice to me n then changed n I can't deal with change - even when a person changes. I will sit there for HOURS trying to analyse WHY. Anyone one of my best friends died of cancer at 29 n I could not be yhere for him. I had to change my details to keep away from my ex n for TWO YEARS I kept saying I'd contact him then I found out he'd died of cancer n I never had that chance to support him through it. I was fighting for my daighter due to ex n forgot Lewis n never had the chance to say bye. He was so caring - looked after his mam etc.
Anyway if this friend has been being nasty with the people that hate me I can't drop her can I cause if anything happens then I'd not be there for her either.
I do race 4 life with is a 5k run/walk to help people with cancer but why do good people have to die? Lewis was one of the nicest, funniest, caring person around n ge was 29 ffs.
A friend of mine had athritus n died having a hip op but I'd spent so much time falling out with her. Why do all the good people go? And I've known loads at the disability club I went too. At least 3 young. All I
Can do is hope that they are with God. God will protect n look after them. And people likeu Nain Peggy will be doing a concert for thr lityle ones. My Nain n Taid were one of a kind n I'll never meet people like those again - but they lived til a decent age my friend lived until 29 n the other until 18 n though she was in a wheelchair, ridfled with athritus, she never once felt sorry for herself, just got on with it.
All the best n let's all beat our addictions, eh?!!! We can do it tpgether!!!!
Evey xxx
Love you guys - you're all so very sweet n kind to me n I want you all to know that it truly means the world to me. Thank you
xxx
I met a friend I've been in contact with for a year she has basically been my rock n I care for her so very much. Anyway lately I'm not sure whether to trust her. I have trust issues because so many people have been nice to me n then changed n I can't deal with change - even when a person changes. I will sit there for HOURS trying to analyse WHY. Anyone one of my best friends died of cancer at 29 n I could not be yhere for him. I had to change my details to keep away from my ex n for TWO YEARS I kept saying I'd contact him then I found out he'd died of cancer n I never had that chance to support him through it. I was fighting for my daighter due to ex n forgot Lewis n never had the chance to say bye. He was so caring - looked after his mam etc.
Anyway if this friend has been being nasty with the people that hate me I can't drop her can I cause if anything happens then I'd not be there for her either.
I do race 4 life with is a 5k run/walk to help people with cancer but why do good people have to die? Lewis was one of the nicest, funniest, caring person around n ge was 29 ffs.
A friend of mine had athritus n died having a hip op but I'd spent so much time falling out with her. Why do all the good people go? And I've known loads at the disability club I went too. At least 3 young. All I
Can do is hope that they are with God. God will protect n look after them. And people likeu Nain Peggy will be doing a concert for thr lityle ones. My Nain n Taid were one of a kind n I'll never meet people like those again - but they lived til a decent age my friend lived until 29 n the other until 18 n though she was in a wheelchair, ridfled with athritus, she never once felt sorry for herself, just got on with it.
All the best n let's all beat our addictions, eh?!!! We can do it tpgether!!!!
Evey xxx
Love you guys - you're all so very sweet n kind to me n I want you all to know that it truly means the world to me. Thank you
xxx
