I never blamed shit on anyone else really, I just started into a bad life, and the hole just got deeper and deeper. I could write a fucking book. haha. But yeah, point of story, not saying I'm not naive and young
Sorry that you've had such bad experiences in life thus far but you are still young and can make better of your future. Substance abuse will just lead you deeper and deeper into that hole and take you away from the greater experiences in life. I hope things can get better for you and best of luck.