I think I have officially crossed that kine with crystal meth..sooner that expected.

[Stimlover22]

I was originally a crack head from the start, but went to rehab for that last year. I started on adderall in january to give me some sort of stimulant buzx, and abused adderall so much, it became useless, I saw no point in ingesting 140mg just to feel good. I was introduced to a meth hook up by a friend i have known for 3 years. The quality has always been shards. I started snorting it first tine ever in early june of this year, next baggie i bought I upgraded to smoking it, and finally by the third bag, i let my dealer shoot me up. I keep telling myself I got this, its "only a pick me up". Well since June I have spent about 1,700.00 on this shit. Been using nearly every week, i plan on snorting it but it always ends up in ny pipe, which I think is the old crack head habits. I do make decent money, so my bills are still paid. But i get up for work then some meth, get.home smoke even more , when I have a prescription sedative full of seroquel at my disposal, but no i stay up and melt bowls. Before I know it back to work time it is. I am choosing to keep my high going rather than lose stimulation. Im having mood wings, and frequently starting to show up with about 30 hours of no sleep and i am noticing a decline in my work performance, and now im taking it with me just to do key bumps to keep me functioning on the clock....::sgh:: .... I dont even know what else to say..fml

 

[herbavore]

If you value your job, not to mention your sanity and your life, it sounds like you know what you have to do: quit. What options do you have?

 

[blahman8000]

See if you can get a few days in a row off from work, allow yourself to come down, keep yourself away from dealers, get a decent meal and some vitamins in your system, and sleep it off. Have a clean friend check in on you. You need to get off this ride because you're well aware that it's getting out of control. You're putting off that come down and choosing to keep perpetuating the high, and it's unsustainable. You need to let yourself crash, no matter how horrific that sounds. You'll have to sit through it at some point. Give yourself some time away from this drug so that your body will learn to function without it. Otherwise you'll keep feeling like you need it. I'm sure you understand that if you don't stop here, it just gets worse. Don't put yourself through this anymore.