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I think I got tricked by Tranny post op, I feel disgusting and think of suicide

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devindawson

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Hey all,
i dont know what to do and i dont have anybody to share my problem..
here i try to share with u all, sorry if my english not good.
Im a male, with wife and 1 beautifull son...
I have bad habbit, i liked to go to prostitute... not a cheap one but a high class one
last week when my friend call me... he ask me to go together. i accept and go with him to one of the best prostitute in my country
I met this thai girl there, she so beautifull so perfect.
i dont have any clue that she a post op tranny..
She got beautifull face, but i spot she got nose surgery then i ask, she said she got accident a car accident so she have a scar.. im not think it weird because i got some korean friend also get surgery
when she naked, i touch her breast and i feel that was silicon breast but i dont have bad judgement because another woman also have her breast on silicon.
Her voice so naturally woman, no adams apple too..
when she going to give me BJ i ask her, i want BJ with Condom, she said OK, you make my job easier she said. i like to work if all my guest like you, so clean.
I get my rule when play with prostitute that no kiss no suck no going down etc
One thing that disturb my brain when im gonna fuck her is, she get lubricant on my condom. I ask her, why? She said, u dont kiss me u dont touch me u dont even suck my nipple im not wet, it will hurt me she said.
then i think ok no problem, i check the pussy looks so natural no problem. So fuck her. when i finished
we talk each other without any problem. Then she said goodbye to me.

When in the car my friend talk to me, Hey dude later dont pick thai girl. I asked, why? Theres so many post op nowdays he said...
I said to him, nah thats real one dude, she got real voice and pussy.... then my friend told me try just google pos op tranny, tehy have very real pussy
they look so real man, he said.
Im speecless on the way to home...

At home i begin to search and found that tranny ususally have silicon breast and use lubricant to have sex and got very beautiful perfect pussy.
Omg i feeling a thunder struck in my body
im so affraid to come back and ask her if she is a post tranny or not..
i feel so stress right now..
I think GOD has give me a warning and punish me...
Im crying all night, i feel disgusted.... i feel tricked, i feel raped in my soul
i think i will end my life....

every morning i got puke in bathroom whenever i think of her...
My wife asking me what happened, i could not tell her that i cheated on her and fuck a tranny...
im just crying in her hug.. i just said im depressed right now without knowing why.. she tryin to calm me down whenever im cryin in the bathroom

i dont know how to deal with this... im very2 dissapointing to whathappen in my life...
I know its my fault.. its the consecuences with my action

im allready asking god for forgiviness

but i cant help my self to forgot that i fucked a man.... oh god i want to ended my life...

but still i look my 2yo son in the eyes, i can see that he said "i stiill need u daddy... Dont do it, i dont know what ur problem but dont do it".

I dont know what to do, to help me how to forgot this, but still i cant forgive my self and cant letting it go guys...
please help me...
 
Im sad nobody helping me

I hope this forum can help, but nobody is answering
i need help.. Plzzzz....
 
Let me help you out here.

1) Stop cheating on your wife.
2) Admit to your wife that you've been cheating on her.
3) Get some better friends, who are not OK with you doing this sort of thing.
4) Resolve for the rest of your life to set a better example to your son.

Regarding possibly sleeping with a transexual... did you ask her if she was a transexual or not beforehand? If not, then I don't see how you can say you were tricked. And anyway, who fucking cares, get over yourself. It's a very poor reflection on your own moral character that you care more about the fact you may or may not have slept with a transexual than the fact that you have a habit of cheating on your wife and the mother of your son.
 
Vastness said:
Let me help you out here.

1) Stop cheating on your wife.
2) Admit to your wife that you've been cheating on her.
3) Get some better friends, who are not OK with you doing this sort of thing.
4) Resolve for the rest of your life to set a better example to your son.

Regarding possibly sleeping with a transexual... did you ask her if she was a transexual or not beforehand? If not, then I don't see how you can say you were tricked. And anyway, who fucking cares, get over yourself. It's a very poor reflection on your own moral character that you care more about the fact you may or may not have slept with a transexual than the fact that you have a habit of cheating on your wife and the mother of your son.
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thank you for your reply...
I dont ask her if she was transeksual or not because i dont know... i think she is a woman before my friend tell me about theres much post op tranny and try to find out.
and for sure till today i still dont know what she really is..
i feel being tricked because i want to choose girls, in whorehouse u know but they give me possibly transexsual... i know im wrong.. it useless to complain this way

yeah you are right im wrong, thank you for slaping my face...
i think i cannot tell the truth to my wife, she will not forgive me for sure. i know her caracter... and its not good for my son
I will try to fix my life, try to get better friends, i know im wrong.. i will try to bettter man for my wife and son
i know you will call me coward for this, but really i cant ruin her anymore...
so i will try to be better man...

thanks, i will wound up from this moment...
karma is working on me yeah i got what i deserved...
 
Well after reading it seems more like you're not sure whether you had sex with a transsexual or not. And after reading your description of how beautiful she was, does it really matter? She made you happy for several hours, and now your friend is trying to psych you out. It's working well. And it's not like you had a dick hit you in the middle of it, she is POST-op. Why get worked up?

Also, for the record I enjoyed this story more. http://bluelight.org/vb/threads/747776-Accidental-Sex-With-A-Transexual-I-feel-violated-and-raped
 
finally i go see a therapist and in that session she told me to face the fear into the source of it.
after work she ask me to join the ride with her.

Im so surprised that she take me back into that prostitution place, and she call the mommy there. We sit together and im so speechless. After that the mommy heard my story from my therapist, and she laugh a lot. she said that she sell only pussy here not sell a dick, in that case a lady in here have silicon breast it is normal she said.
The mommy said if you dont believe me you can sue me, i got my girl true birth paper and you can check my girl in hospital she said.
then my therapist said its enough...
Back to the car, my therapist say to me Is that enough for relieving you?
I say i feels better, a lot of better...
Not long time my therapist saw a girl walking to the prostution place and she go to her and ask her to join us a moment in car.
My therapist ask her if she know thai girl work here, she said i know them. And my therapist ask if there are possibility that the girl is a man/ trany? she said no way , they all girl you know.. and then my therapist pay her.
Is this enough my therapist said...
I said its enough...
And my therapist said i hope this is the last time for you to visiting place like this.
She said maybe in several days you will have to fight with the negative mind that come and come again but i think its easier now.
Maybe you will think that mommy and that girl lied to you or something, its normal.
its take time to fully recovered she said, and one thing that she recommend to me is spend more time with family.
She ask me to come again next week.
 
devindawson said:
Whats so funny?
i came here to search help, in your forum. and u laugh at people who really need support..
omg what kind of forum is this..
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A forum primarily in English with users looking to laugh at anything. Don't worry about it.

I support you and am more than delighted to hear the progress of your situation, I admire your therapist for the boldness to take you back there. Good luck my friend.
 
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