I have been visiting Bluelight for quite a while now (year or so) and have always gotten useful info. I have been using prescription painkillers (anything i could get) for about 2 1/2 years pretty consistently. About a year ago, I was introduced to this Amazing/enslaving drug called Opana8) I was hooked!! Over the past few months I have really struggled with this addiction. I went through full-blown withdrawals for 3 or 4 days (it was a blur) and felt like a new woman when a made it through; then 2 weeks later I convenced myself that I could go back to using recreationaly (who was I kidding?) and needless to say I was back where I started. I found out that two of my friends who used with me fairly often decided it was time to get clean because it was "taking over their lives." As I said before, I had been struggling with this addiction for a while at this point, not only physicaly but mentaly/emotionaly. I truly didnt want every day of my life to be based on whether I had my fix or not. I spent so much time praying that maybe God would just take the desire to use away, and of course, that did not happen (you reap what you sow
)...Ok, back to my friends...They told me they had access to some Subs and BOOM!!! my light at the end of the tunnel finaly appeared!!! You have to reallize that out of all the drugs i have access to, that is the HARDEST to find. I jumped all over it and bought two. I could not believe how amazing it is. I started going into w/d's two days ago (tuesday); 12 hours after my last dose and was sick from that moment until late afternoon on Wed. It is Thurday and I feel Brand New again (Cheesy, I know
. My plan is to only be on Subs for a week simply because although I was addicted, my habit is not as severe as many others; however, it was still no life to live....work my ass off and continue to be strapped for money. I have a son who needs his mother at 100%, 100% of the time.
I'm blogging about this to help others, but to also help myself because we are all fellow users or ex-users, and everyone here knows what its like to be where I am at some point and time. I will continue to keep blogging about this experience.
*~*Red*~*
)...Ok, back to my friends...They told me they had access to some Subs and BOOM!!! my light at the end of the tunnel finaly appeared!!! You have to reallize that out of all the drugs i have access to, that is the HARDEST to find. I jumped all over it and bought two. I could not believe how amazing it is. I started going into w/d's two days ago (tuesday); 12 hours after my last dose and was sick from that moment until late afternoon on Wed. It is Thurday and I feel Brand New again (Cheesy, I know . My plan is to only be on Subs for a week simply because although I was addicted, my habit is not as severe as many others; however, it was still no life to live....work my ass off and continue to be strapped for money. I have a son who needs his mother at 100%, 100% of the time. I'm blogging about this to help others, but to also help myself because we are all fellow users or ex-users, and everyone here knows what its like to be where I am at some point and time. I will continue to keep blogging about this experience.
*~*Red*~*