So I've been RX'd Adderall (and others) since I was 11; but never really took it until I was 17.
At first, the meds were a miracle drug of sorts. I had always been a bad student, didn't like sports, and was sort of chubby. once I started taking the adderalls again; I was like a mature version of my former self.
I got a girlfriend, lost 30lbs working out and running, got strait A's for the first time. I even started playing guitar for maybe 4 hours a day. My life went from shit, to super.
------- Fast foward maybe 2 years.
After losing my girlfriend, my good running habits, and my enthusiam. I start trying harder drugs. Quickly I lose control, start doing all sorts of drugs; almost like a "drug obsession" I had. Times started not being nearly as much fun. My girlfriend dies of an overdose.
--------- Fast forward 5 years.
After getting off opiates and the VERY occasional meth usage; as well as quitting suboxone maintenance. I'm starting to feel good with just my adderall prescription. But quickly I start using higher and higher amounts.
---- Fast forward a few months.
Adderall doesn't work like it used to ... I just use it to pass the time sense I've been layed off and I read a lot. I am a musician in a band, and I used to get the most insane desire to jam and write songs. I use up to double in a day what I am allotted ( 60 mgs a day)
I used to feel so alive and wonderful; when I was in school and taking normal amounts. I used to play guitar so much better with just a normal dose.
I took the day off yesterday, didn't take any adderall. I was ok most of the day.. but when I was trying to sleep last night I felt like I was going through withdrawals almost as bad as a heroin withdrawal.
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Sorry if I am losing you at this point! Lol. Anyway. I think I am going to try 3 months NO ADDERALL.... Assess how I feel. And then decide whether I can still use this drug properly -- or whether it does more damage than good. And then i'll quit for good... Or start very low and re-enroll to college.
If anyone has any tips, or similar experiences to draw upon; I'd be very grateful.
At first, the meds were a miracle drug of sorts. I had always been a bad student, didn't like sports, and was sort of chubby. once I started taking the adderalls again; I was like a mature version of my former self.
I got a girlfriend, lost 30lbs working out and running, got strait A's for the first time. I even started playing guitar for maybe 4 hours a day. My life went from shit, to super.
------- Fast foward maybe 2 years.
After losing my girlfriend, my good running habits, and my enthusiam. I start trying harder drugs. Quickly I lose control, start doing all sorts of drugs; almost like a "drug obsession" I had. Times started not being nearly as much fun. My girlfriend dies of an overdose.
--------- Fast forward 5 years.
After getting off opiates and the VERY occasional meth usage; as well as quitting suboxone maintenance. I'm starting to feel good with just my adderall prescription. But quickly I start using higher and higher amounts.
---- Fast forward a few months.
Adderall doesn't work like it used to ... I just use it to pass the time sense I've been layed off and I read a lot. I am a musician in a band, and I used to get the most insane desire to jam and write songs. I use up to double in a day what I am allotted ( 60 mgs a day)
I used to feel so alive and wonderful; when I was in school and taking normal amounts. I used to play guitar so much better with just a normal dose.
I took the day off yesterday, didn't take any adderall. I was ok most of the day.. but when I was trying to sleep last night I felt like I was going through withdrawals almost as bad as a heroin withdrawal.
-
Sorry if I am losing you at this point! Lol. Anyway. I think I am going to try 3 months NO ADDERALL.... Assess how I feel. And then decide whether I can still use this drug properly -- or whether it does more damage than good. And then i'll quit for good... Or start very low and re-enroll to college.
If anyone has any tips, or similar experiences to draw upon; I'd be very grateful.
