I think ecstasy messed me up

[Hamze2648]

Well this last spring break I went on a ecstasy binge for 4 days then did it once more a week later. Total of 10 pills. I didn't feel the effects till about 3 weeks later. I was getting stoned(I've been a pot head for over 2 years) on my 8th bong toke I felt sick. I got dizzy, sweaty, head ache and felt real fucked up. So I asked my buddy to drive me home. On my way to my house(it was night time) all the lights and sighns were so bright as if I was on E. Which I wasn't. So I went to bed a little worried but had no problems sleeping. The next day I woke up with a head ache. It felt like the front of my head was swollen. I don't think as clear anymore,I don't socialize cuz when I do I kinda go brain dead and down know what to say. I have no emotions and if I do I'd say I'm depressed now. When I go out side and look at the trees or clouds they really stand out like there fake almost. I thought if I would just wait it out things would get better but it seems like it's getting worse being alone everyday. I quit doing drugs I. have a drink or 2 here and there and I smoke cigarettes. I've been like this for2 months and need help from someone possibly with the same experience. I need to carry on with my life

 

[ComfortablyNumb95]

Hey mate, I'm sorry to hear about your story.
but I'm here to tell you that you're not alone - and that recovery is very much possible.
what you did is starve your brain from all its serotonin and probably damage some receptors (you shouldn't roll more than once a month and with tested product, ingesting moderate doses), what you're experiencing is called Derealisation and is usually caused by extreme levels of anxiety, but don't worry it will go away with time and taking care of yourself.
the first step is - as you did - stopping all drugs intake for good.

other things that help a lot are
-physical exercise: working out releases "feel good chemicals" like dopamine, serotonin and endorphins and it'll help your body and mind recover.
-eating healthy, this will help your body heal
-practicing yoga and meditation, to help you clear your mind of bad thoughts and cope better with what you're experiencing

you could also ask your doctor for medications such as benzodiazepines, but my advice is to ride it out with the above techniques, as medications may worsen your situation in the long run while temporarly hiding your problems.

if you want to hear about other's experiences, check out this forum, and in particular this thread, but don't read too much on the subject as it might only increase your anxiety, and you sure as hell don't need that.

cheers mate and good luck, send me a PM whenever you want

EDIT: forgot to add, this is a very good website for anxiety sufferers.

 

[The Doc.]

Welcome to BLUELIGHT!

I'm sorry to hear that I know a few people who did E a few too many times and now they are a totally different person that SHIT can wreak havoc on the brain.

I'm sure comfy knows more about E than me so stick with him I'm more a heroin guy myself.

Hope you stay a while we would live to have you join our community

 

[aq.]

Nmi > mdma & ed

 

[CDN 80s]

I had a very similar experience with E myself. The summer after my senior year I basically went off the deep end with all kinds of shit, but mostly E. I rolled almost every night for almost a month and it had serious physical and emotional effects on me. What you are describing matches my experience to a T. Things seemed surreal, I was depressed and relating to people seemed just about impossible. I left my apartment and hid at my ex girlfriend's house, alone, and didn't talk to anyone for about a month. During that time I experienced severe manic depression and basically rethought my whole life, as one sometimes does during or after a bad trip. It took me months to get back to where I felt like my brain worked normally. I really didn't think I would ever recover normal brain function again, but slowly but surely I did. I do think it had some lasting effects on me but like I said it was almost on a daily basis for weeks at a time which is just irresponsible and ignorant as fuck. Give yourself a while and try to do healthy activities. It DOES GET BETTER, but it really takes time man. The chemicals in your brain are delicately balanced and binging on E fucks up the balance to the max. I hope this helps man, hang in there.

 

[thejibberman]

I had a very similar experience with E myself. The summer after my senior year I basically went off the deep end with all kinds of shit, but mostly E. I rolled almost every night for almost a month and it had serious physical and emotional effects on me. What you are describing matches my experience to a T. Things seemed surreal, I was depressed and relating to people seemed just about impossible. I left my apartment and hid at my ex girlfriend's house, alone, and didn't talk to anyone for about a month. During that time I experienced severe manic depression and basically rethought my whole life, as one sometimes does during or after a bad trip. It took me months to get back to where I felt like my brain worked normally. I really didn't think I would ever recover normal brain function again, but slowly but surely I did. I do think it had some lasting effects on me but like I said it was almost on a daily basis for weeks at a time which is just irresponsible and ignorant as fuck. Give yourself a while and try to do healthy activities. It DOES GET BETTER, but it really takes time man. The chemicals in your brain are delicately balanced and binging on E fucks up the balance to the max. I hope this helps man, hang in there.

Currently dealing with this now, it's been 3 and a half months for me, what long lasting effects did you have out of curiosity?

 

[CDN 80s]

It took about 3 to 4 months for the "derealization" to leave. Took about 6 months for me to feel like I could think (read, converse, do math...) normally. Unfortunately the depression and anxiety fucked with me so bad that I started abusing opiates, alcohol and benzos badly. The good thing is it wound me up in rehab and then sober living which was really what I needed. After about 5 months of living clean and sober (so about a year after the binge) I pretty much leveled out. I cannot stress enough how bad using other drugs compounds the problem. Even just smoking weed. You need to give your brain a break and let it do its thing naturally, by itself. I now use opiates and weed and LOVE them but they DO NOT help in recovering your sanity from binging on E. Time and healthy habits will heal you eventually. The most long lasting effects were altered self-esteem and a change in the way I see myself. Not sure if that's ever reversible for me.

 

[Ifeel4U]

I've takin 3 100mg one each night 3 days in a row at a festival..it was inly my 3rd time taking X.. It was not tested .. Its been 5 weeks and i still have some brain fog/cloudy .. Some aneixty... But the bad part is i cant sleep .. (Which is def a must ) in order to recover no sleep adds to longer recovery .. I find that not think about it sorta help (even tho it still there) . Before this i never had aneixty or sleep problems now i do ... I hope they will go away .. But the difference from the 1st week till now is a little better not freaking out and panicked. It freaked me out thinking it will be 6 monts till i feel normal... But what are you really gunna do...

You just have to come to the realization that it will pass most likely but it will take time and you just dont know when you will be back to your normal self again.. I believe that most ppl turn out okay in time

There are alot of ppl going through this and its a reality check for sure.. I hope you and i get better..

Side note: went to the psych. Gave my klonopin but i stopped taking it after a week bc it SO addicting taking drugs is not worth it

Anyone has any positive updates regarding time tables?