i still wish...

[beanpoophead]

I remember losing you
Like it was just last minute
I didn’t know that you existed
I didn’t know that you could be real
I never thought you would be at all
I never thought you could loss something
That you never even know you had
And feel grief so terrifying
That I broke
And fell to my knees
I begged god to put you back
Even though I know I was the one
That made you disappear
The cocaine
The cigarettes
The alcohol
The abuse.
And it was me.
I was the one that killed you.
So strange to think that I would be
Feeling you inside of me right now
If it wasn’t this way
Despite what it would have been,
I still wish you were inside of me again.

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

i think this is one thing us guys will never fully be able to feel, that connection that a mother has with her unborn child, i remember reading your journal entry on this and if i remember correctly you almost felt disconnected from the situation, i think its a healthy step that you are feeling this regardless of how much it will hurt. A lot of us in words are looking out for you girl, hope to see more happiness one day soon, your time will come again.

*hugs*

keep writing.

 

[m4dd0g]

thankyou

 

[RareForm]

hugs sweetheart.

 

[cherub]

I really like the end of this girl,, it is raw emotion that comes out... but to have someone inside of you can be taken in both terms and it just makes the piece though not a happy one.

hugs

 

[MissBehavin'_416]

I got goose bumps reading that (lower half)

 

[FixXxer]

*applauds

keep it up...