I should be so happy. but nope.

[jeah]

I swear to god I have noone to reach out to. all my friends/family do not realize the extent of my drug use though. or even at all. they are against medication. even though it is gonna be minor compared to some of you. I have SUCH BAD MOTHERFUCKING ADHD that i took 25mg of adderall and fell aslep for 4 hours. took 10 more mg then fell asleep an hour after that for one more hour. stayed up for 6 hours then fell back asleep. but now I am fucking exhausted but pupils like saucers, tons of energy, slight jaw clenhcing. it's been 20 hours since i took 10 whopping grams of amphetamine. if the sun rises I guess I just take 20 more??? i'm clueless right now. I know adderall makes me tired then awake when it wears off but this is RIDUCULOUS. i quit smoking bud on the 30th so I could get a job. even though I have a misdemeanor VOP on my record and it's gonna be impossible. at least i start college on monday.

God what the fuck have I been doing. Just got out of a 12 year relationship with someone who treated me like complete shit the last 4 years but I stayed with her for my daughter. I even let her see the guy she is with the last year of our relationship. he is gay/bisexual like ZERO threat. her self-esteem is completely shot. I have everything going for me once I get my root canals and possibly a bridge. I think my ADHD was caused by environment. I am discovering who I am again and how lucky to be who I am. I am just so damn mad at myself and cannot get to sleep even after a gram of gabapentin 2mg of xanax and 2 beers. sucks. I guarantee if I take 10mg of adderall I will pass out but I want to sleep good. clearly I didn't cuz I'm tired and can't sleep. so ya all I take is gabapentin and xanax but I got an adderall script for school and wanted to try it since it had been so long. once I get a real doc I am getting dexedrine. still gonna have the same problems with it more or less. FUCK!

 

[Mel22]

ADHD is not caused by the environment, and if you do have it, it's not going away.

You need to speak to an ADHD specialist. Untreated adult ADHD commonly causes a myriad of issues, and some can be serious if left to go on. If you take your meds as prescribed, you will not encounter the issues that you are currently.

There is also the option of coaching, CBT etc. Things can and will get better, just be proactive about your treatment and be serious about managing your symptoms. There are also some good books on the issue - PM me if you want some suggestions.

 

[lars90]

ADHD is not cause through environment. I have ADD which is the same just not so strong. If you want to sleep just don't take anything for the next few weeks and you'll pass away as normal. Sleeping problems are often just a mental/emotional think. Try meditating always helps me. Do it an hour or 2 before you go to be. And gracious lord if you take that much . And what do you expect if you take 10 fucking grams of amphetamin just to be as to go back to sleep? I use to get medicated with 30mg of it a day called Ritalin and I was really quit in the beginning and the in the rage mode. Where I just wanted to smash someone. I was really pissed at everyone every fucking. In the afternoon and to top it all I had sleeping problems too so you'll understand why I use to open the capsules and pour out all the stuff inside and then let my mom think I took it.

Why don't you try taking your hands of drugs for a while and try natural things. Like this sounds stupid but it always works for me go masturbating before going to sleep. I always get really chilled an tiered when I do and fall aeep right away.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

I'm not trying to be preachy, but you have to work on your ADD/ADHD without relying on medication. You can still use the medication, but don't rely on it.

How much exercise are you doing? Are you eating a decent balanced diet? What's your sleep schedule like?

 

[jeah]

10 milligrams. the one time I smoked meth I slept for 6 hours about 20 min after smoking it. I have deep phase sleep disorder so it's hard for me to keep a 11-7 sleep schedule but I try. I practice decent sleep hygeine and take 1mg of melatonin before bed. cocaine, of course, makes me sleep as well. but this was too much. uppers= sleping meds. also, you would be suprised what can be caused by the environment...

 

[jeah]

also I got to the gym 3 times a week and ride my bike 60 miles a week. I eat fairly well but could be doing better. i take fish oil every day and a good multivitamin once or twice a week. sorry to post twice, it wont let me edit. mods can merge these posts

 

[jeah]

sorry, have to post thrice. I just wanted to clarify that I very, very rarelt take my adhd meds b/c of the horrible tweaked feeling I get after they wear off. even 10mg of adderall. I would be extremely interested in any natural treatments for adhd. wellbutrin works very well but i refuse to take any neurotrasmitter reuptake inhibitors. the purpose on meditation is being able to concentrate, right? why is adhd so prevalent in the united states? I think you understand where I am going with this. I should be able to meditate. I will not believe that I cannot do as I please with my mind. sorry it is hard to articulate my thoughts at the moment. I hate uppers so much. last time. maybe i will try 2.5-5mg before school. mods can merge all 3 posts, thank you.

 

[lars90]

sorry, have to post thrice. I just wanted to clarify that I very, very rarelt take my adhd meds b/c of the horrible tweaked feeling I get after they wear off. even 10mg of adderall. I would be extremely interested in any natural treatments for adhd. wellbutrin works very well but i refuse to take any neurotrasmitter reuptake inhibitors. the purpose on meditation is being able to concentrate, right? why is adhd so prevalent in the united states? I think you understand where I am going with this. I should be able to meditate. I will not believe that I cannot do as I please with my mind. sorry it is hard to articulate my thoughts at the moment. I hate uppers so much. last time. maybe i will try 2.5-5mg before school. mods can merge all 3 posts, thank you.

For me ADD just went away with Time but i have Lots of Friends with ADHD One of them (my favorite) just Doesnt Drink Coke or and other sucary things. ADHD is a wonderfull illness to in my opinion because it comes with a great imagination. When I close my eyes I see wonderfull things such as AirPlay s turning into fireflys turning into tornadoes or helicopters. Things like that. To be honest it's even helpful some time because we have allot more energie. Down side is we always have to fie with things have something in are hand move around cant sit still and bad concentration.
I would just get something like a soft small ball or something like sillipuddy to fool arou d with when your sitting Down talking to someone. I said its gone but I think I might still have a little. When I sit down and talk to anyone ill find my self fiddling around with my mobile phone. But it's gotten so much better. I found medications just make it allot worse because you start getting dependent on them after a while and over long term they leave damage. I know what you mean with the feeling after the "high" or better yet low. Just cut down on drugs and you'll find yourself being able to sleep your mode will improve and everything will get better.