laCster
Bluelighter
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One of my biggest resentments I carry around is towards my parents. They are very controlling in a passive aggressive way and I have an insatiable urge to prove that I don't need their rules and I don't need their approval and that they can't control me.
This resentment makes me want to get high because that is the biggest slap in the face I can do to my parents.
I was told I am being very selfish for not accepting their twisted love. Am I just playing a victim ? I don't know but it fucks with me because I'd like to believe that I love my parents , but I feel as if the only thing I love is their bank account. They spend their money on what they think will be best for me even though that's almost never the case when I think something would be good for me and ask them to pay they say no and it's really fucking frustrating because they can give and take money as they please. I'm only 20 years old and I don't live with them. They are paying for my halfway house and I also resent them for basically forcing me into rehabs.
My only option is do what I need to so I can get out of the halfway house and move far away from my parents as possible.
This resentment makes me want to get high because that is the biggest slap in the face I can do to my parents.
I was told I am being very selfish for not accepting their twisted love. Am I just playing a victim ? I don't know but it fucks with me because I'd like to believe that I love my parents , but I feel as if the only thing I love is their bank account. They spend their money on what they think will be best for me even though that's almost never the case when I think something would be good for me and ask them to pay they say no and it's really fucking frustrating because they can give and take money as they please. I'm only 20 years old and I don't live with them. They are paying for my halfway house and I also resent them for basically forcing me into rehabs.
My only option is do what I need to so I can get out of the halfway house and move far away from my parents as possible.