I really...

[Cosmic Mist]

Right now, i really need someone to talk to. I really feel the emptiness of the walls around me. I need to feel the warmth of human expression and hear the comfort that only a human voice can bring. I feel so alone in this big, empty house - there is no one here to hear me calling out for someone, anyone to come...

I really needed to talk to someone this evening. i really needed them to hear my thoughts and make me feel that they are not merely unjustified ramblings of a woman losing her nerve. I need somene to tell me that what i am doing is just and right - that this is a good purpose, and achieving my goals will not be just another waste of time.

I really hoped that someone would be able to help me this time... but i feel as though i have been walking alone for so long that even if i were to tell someone what i was thinking and how i was feeling, i'm not altogether convinced that they would understand...

I've never been here before, and it scares me half to death. I just want these last months to be good happy months in which i can rejoice all that i have achieved to this point. Instead i find myself wallowing pointlessly over petty things that i could not change, even if i actually wanted to...

I really just want someone to show me the way, to shine a light so that i can follow it. Stumbling blindly as i am is serving me no good, and i am certain it is no easier for those around me either...

...but really, i just need someone to sit me down and make me believe that everything will be ok. I need that constant assurance that no one can give...

... and i think it is this need that is breaking me in two...

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

*hugs*

I think that need we all have, and the only person who can folfill it is ourselves! I know I have been there many a time, just someone to validate what Im doing - validate me!

Hope everything is ok with you! Great writing as always!

 

[neverwas]

Oh baby

*insert huge huggles here*

i wish i could be there for you right now. You have a huge adventure comming up next year that you should be excited about. its not easy leaving loved ones and friends and families behind. but you are comming back...eventually.

i think you yourself insdie know everything will be ok. things wil get better each day at a time and peple will realise this is a good thing for you to be doin.

its scarey...but just think of all the things you be gaining. i would kill to be as smart as you and doing what youre fonna be doin.

you have great friends like myself, ant and steve and many others who all know hat adventure you are embarking on.

yes you will be missed lots, theres no doubt about that. its never hard saying goodbye...but just think of it as a "see you soon" instead of goodbye

theres a song by Modest Mouse called Gravity Rides Everything with these words in it...

In the motions and the things that you say
It all will fall, fall right into place
As fruit drops, flesh it sags
Everything will fall right into place
When we die, some sink and some lay
But at least I don't see you float away
And all the spilt milk, sex and weight
It all will fall, fall right into place


girl i love you to bits and i dont like seeing any of my friends sad or depressed. drop me a pm with your email address in it and details so we can talk while you are away and shit.

i love you!

 

[katmeow]

I really hoped that someone would be able to help me this time... but i feel as though i have been walking alone for so long that even if i were to tell someone what i was thinking and how i was feeling, i'm not altogether convinced that they would understand...

Your writing always speaks to me - especially this part. A few more weeks of shitty assignments to get done, then I'm free as a bird and we definitely should do something!

Be well.

*hugs*

 

[Cosmic Mist]

It's times like these when you realise how special good friends are...

.. thanks guys - you all rock!

 

[neverwas]

 

[up all night]

I hope writing this out made things a little easier for you CM.

 

[cherub]

Definately a piece with emotional heart put it in. We all realize how much Need our friends in moments like those. You it down with total heart, you can't help but be touched.