Uhmmilikepoker
Greenlighter
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- Oct 20, 2015
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Hello everyone,
I genuinely do think psychedelic can be a useful tool when used sparingly and when treated with respect. Whilst I wholeheartedly trust myself to use them carefully, I unfortunately suffer from mild depression and anxiety. Whilst I believe this is the hindrance to me being able to reliably have 'good' trip, I really do think that that psychedelics can play a key role in altering my thought processes in a positive way and just generally like myself a bit more.
Out of the 5 or so times I have tripped, I would say 2 have been negative experiences. Whilst there were events/situations (particularly strong and lingering nausea, for example) that I believe led to these bad experiences, I generally do fear losing control I think. It almost feels like my mind always finds something to worry about.
Am I destined to never be able to enjoy tripping? I've achieved way more than I could have ever hoped in the last year or two, but my depression still blocks me from feeling any sort of satisfaction/pride. I just feel like psychedelics could be a key to objectively looking at my life and realising how lucky I am. It seems like a shame to think that they could really help my illness, but I don't have the balls to overcome my illness in the short term and just go along for the wonderful ride.
I should add that I generally feel anxious about taking most drugs. Whilst I wouldn't normally with taking drugs I know are safe (eg shrooms) the fact that I may have picked a poisonous shroom doesn't rest with me too well. (I have picked shrooms a few times - I am fairly confident but I just worry). I have some 1pLSD which doesn't have that risk, but it is an untested research chemical which also doesn't sit particularly well with me.
I have access to benzos if need be. Maybe preload with a light dose of benzos to get me used to the feeling of tripping? I space out my trips by months/years so I never feel like I am getting used to tripping, but I imagine I would feel far more comfortable given a bit of experience. Sorry for the long-winded post, any advice would be greatly appreciated (if that advice is don't touch psychedelics, it is appreciated just as much). Thanks for listening/reading.
I genuinely do think psychedelic can be a useful tool when used sparingly and when treated with respect. Whilst I wholeheartedly trust myself to use them carefully, I unfortunately suffer from mild depression and anxiety. Whilst I believe this is the hindrance to me being able to reliably have 'good' trip, I really do think that that psychedelics can play a key role in altering my thought processes in a positive way and just generally like myself a bit more.
Out of the 5 or so times I have tripped, I would say 2 have been negative experiences. Whilst there were events/situations (particularly strong and lingering nausea, for example) that I believe led to these bad experiences, I generally do fear losing control I think. It almost feels like my mind always finds something to worry about.
Am I destined to never be able to enjoy tripping? I've achieved way more than I could have ever hoped in the last year or two, but my depression still blocks me from feeling any sort of satisfaction/pride. I just feel like psychedelics could be a key to objectively looking at my life and realising how lucky I am. It seems like a shame to think that they could really help my illness, but I don't have the balls to overcome my illness in the short term and just go along for the wonderful ride.
I should add that I generally feel anxious about taking most drugs. Whilst I wouldn't normally with taking drugs I know are safe (eg shrooms) the fact that I may have picked a poisonous shroom doesn't rest with me too well. (I have picked shrooms a few times - I am fairly confident but I just worry). I have some 1pLSD which doesn't have that risk, but it is an untested research chemical which also doesn't sit particularly well with me.
I have access to benzos if need be. Maybe preload with a light dose of benzos to get me used to the feeling of tripping? I space out my trips by months/years so I never feel like I am getting used to tripping, but I imagine I would feel far more comfortable given a bit of experience. Sorry for the long-winded post, any advice would be greatly appreciated (if that advice is don't touch psychedelics, it is appreciated just as much). Thanks for listening/reading.