Mental Health I once had a BPD girlfriend

[Dr. Morphine]

So anyway, I was accused of abuse for calling a BPD girl a bitch when she had abused many people including me. I don't quite understand how that works out when it's them who abuse people and that gets excused for some reason. So they get a license to abuse without consequences. Maybe I'm not even allowed to tell a horror story about being in a (faux) relationship with one of these people. Let's find out.

The girl I was with couldn't be left alone for a month without cheating. They didn't have the stones to be honest about anything ever. They had no interest in anything truly educational or advancing in a meaningful way. They couldn't take not one iota of disapproval yet looked down on me and others for whatever they could. Of course I got tired of all this and left. Years later I went back for a potential fling, they were really raging then, almost impossible to be around for more than three hours. Also this person was sex phobic at this point, totally frigid and cold as ice. Had already been through 2 husbands at this point. Raged on the poor bastards and no sex.. and cheating.. they left. She had more kids too so quite possibly they're being driven crazy too. This person had very little insight and behaved irresponsibly, never took it upon herself to get treatment for at least those around her, because didn't give a shit about self apparently. Either that or just broken ego couldn't take the heat. So coward basically on top of being a bitch with impaired executive functions.

So there's that. I'll not be called an abuser when I call out an abuser and irresponsible human being. I'll tell it like it is, because being nice and quiet doesn't solve a fuckin thing with people who pull all that bullshit. At the end of the day, people do have choices unless they are a vegetable.

 

[Schizopath]

1 drug problem is too much already, + to drag another person into it + her problems... hell nah

 

[Dr. Morphine]

1 drug problem is too much already, + to drag another person into it + her problems... hell nah

What???

 

[Deleted member 507397]

Bipolar disorder? I'm not sure I believe mental illness is inherently violent. I also don't believe sociopathy is a "personality disorder". What the fuck. I think if the people around you know the symptoms...you should be able to get along? Maybe in mentally ill people if they are victimized for their illness instead of supported then they could be misconstrued. Some of what you described just sounds violent though, I don't know if that is bipolar or not.

 

[buriedbyclouds]

like jeanpauldash said above it sounds like bipolar disorder to me way over bpd. as someone with bipolar type 1, yes bipolar can be violent. a good half of the time it is violent and mean, can confirmcanconfirm..

 

[Dr. Morphine]

Bipolar disorder? I'm not sure I believe mental illness is inherently violent. I also don't believe sociopathy is a "personality disorder". What the fuck. I think if the people around you know the symptoms...you should be able to get along? Maybe in mentally ill people if they are victimized for their illness instead of supported then they could be misconstrued. Some of what you described just sounds violent though, I don't know if that is bipolar or not.

I said nothing about bipolar disorder, nor is bipolar disorder called BPD. Bipolar Disorder is only 2 words. Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is three words.

 

[Katanya]

I don’t subscribe to the whole, “people with BPD are angels,” nonsense.

They are not angels and they can be manipulative and abusive.

I don’t care what facade they put on in DBT Therapy or with their individual therapist.

 

[Deleted member 507397]

I said nothing about bipolar disorder, nor is bipolar disorder called BPD. Bipolar Disorder is only 2 words. Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is three words.

Ah. I had abusive people try to tell me I was bpd twice. It's too close to sociopathy, and I don't have any of the symptoms. I think giving me Xanax xr as a teen instead of Klonopin really fucked me with my anxiety disorder. Xanax xr has this thick, gross coating on it and has different speed and duration than Klonopin. When I got older I found Klonopin. I thought, wow, I found the right med. My anxiety? Needs actual Klonopin. Giving me Xanax xr was stupid. I wound up chewing it and getting into a car wreck. (My mom stole my computer and I was driving to the library to post lol)

 

[notsmokeymcpot42088]

Never blame the drugs -- that is drug abuse! You think getting one benzo instead of a basically interchangeable benzo really fucked with you and your anxiety disorder? Everyone is different but in general a benzo is a benzo.

(Yes I know Xanax kicks in quicker, klonopin lasts longer and is a nitrobenz -- all that good stuff. Still think that is grasping at straws just to be honest)

BTW also had a BPD girlfriend for like 13 years ("Hs sweethearts")-- though the symptoms only manifested heavily in her early 20s. Do NOT RECOMMEND! Way to much drama -- kind of people that say "If you can't handle me at my worst you don't deserve me at my best" lol I love to hate those type comments

 

[Deleted member 507397]

Never blame the drugs -- that is drug abuse! You think getting one benzo instead of a basically interchangeable benzo really fucked with you and your anxiety disorder? Everyone is different but in general a benzo is a benzo.

(Yes I know Xanax kicks in quicker, klonopin lasts longer and is a nitrobenz -- all that good stuff. Still think that is grasping at straws just to be honest)

I think what you're saying is against science. You can't throw away the differences. I was such a sick case of generalized anxiety disorder that I did indeed need Klonopin. The dea really sets people with my disorder up to be interrogated and turned down.

 

[Dr. Morphine]

Ah. I had abusive people try to tell me I was bpd twice. It's too close to sociopathy, and I don't have any of the symptoms. I think giving me Xanax xr as a teen instead of Klonopin really fucked me with my anxiety disorder. Xanax xr has this thick, gross coating on it and has different speed and duration than Klonopin. When I got older I found Klonopin. I thought, wow, I found the right med. My anxiety? Needs actual Klonopin. Giving me Xanax xr was stupid. I wound up chewing it and getting into a car wreck. (My mom stole my computer and I was driving to the library to post lol)

They misdiagnose that shit all the time. That's why it's barely worth it to go and see the mother fuckers.

 

[notsmokeymcpot42088]

I think what you're saying is against science. You can't throw away the differences. I was such a sick case of generalized anxiety disorder that I did indeed need Klonopin. The dea really sets people with my disorder up to be interrogated and turned down.

How is what I am saying against science? My only point is in most cases Klonopin and Xanax are fairly exchangeable (Both benzos roughly equipotent). If the dude gave you Seroquel and you needed Klonopin (Something that happens regularly) I could see feeling it messed up your entire life.

I am not you, you know what works for you and should stick to it.

 

[Deleted member 507397]

How is what I am saying against science? My only point is in most cases Klonopin and Xanax are fairly exchangeable (Both benzos roughly equipotent). If the dude gave you Seroquel and you needed Klonopin (Something that happens regularly) I could see feeling it messed up your entire life.

I am not you, you know what works for you and should stick to it.

It genuinely and I am not lying fucked up my entire life. You see I post here, right? My tight diagnosis is strong af

 

[notsmokeymcpot42088]

It genuinely and I am not lying fucked up my entire life. You see I post here, right? My tight diagnosis is strong af

Well those are words --- don't worry I speak half thoughts.

"It genuine" your medication does genuinely work for you and make the difference

"I am not lying fucked up my entire life" Getting Klonopin instead of Xanax did in fact fuck up my entire life. -- Who am I to tell you otherwise everyone is different, what you are saying is akin to 'the Dr gave me codeine and it nearly ruined my life, thank God I am on Vicodin now'.
"When you lie to yourself you not only grant the devil a microphone and podium, but an attentive audience"

"You see I post here right?" Okay that one is a bit lost in translation but if I gathered its something like "You know my life is fucked up cuz/by posts on here" -- Yes I do. Being honest I truly doubt that getting Klonopin instead of Xanax at one point is the root of 'your entire life being fucked up' (Which we all feel like a little and I am sure you are being hard on yourself - try not to)

My tight diagnosis is strong AF -- 'my diagnosis is very real and I was drunk when I typed this' --- I believe you. I tend not to believe the equipotent benzo switch is not the root of your problems but I am no MD nor would I want to venture into attempting to diagnose anyone with anything.