But I am sad today. I am sad because my friend whom i do business with got busted during a robbery investigation, he wasnt the robber just the "drug dealer" they didnt know lived next door. I know he will be ok in the end and will most likely avoid jail time but thats not what bothers me. What bothers me so is I never got to say how thankful i truly am for what he did.
Before we met my now ex g/f but still my best friend and i were IV heroin addicts. We had the typical IV heroin addict story, broke constantly trying to get money anyway we can. She was depressed and at worst suicidal i had completely lost direction in a sense. There was a time shortly before i met him that we were on methadone struggling to stay clean then one day i went to a show with the intent of finding molly. I found someone who would later introduce me to the only real friend ive made in a while.
Its funny because i always felt that it was all supported by pillars of sand and that at any point it could change. Its not the idea that i may have to source or pay more but does he even know how important his role was in 2 peoples recovery? I never told him that before we met we were so into heroin that I held my now ex g/f who overdosed in a drug den begging her to come back crying not to be left alone and how we were both so lost i didnt think there was a way out. It just so happened we met a friend and were able to resume smoking copious amounts of weed right when we needed it most that methadone worked. Through his friendship the girl i love grow more confident and started coming out to shows with us and enjoying her life more. Its because of him that we have the lives we do now.
How do you tell someone that its probably because of them that you have focus and direction back how through nothing more then friendship we were able to change our destiny. Its one thing to get clean its another thing to pick up a new life new friends and new activities... he facilitated all that provided a place we were welcome and never judged us. Hell he never even really asked left me around enough shit to feed my former heroin addiction for a few days and never wondered if i would disappear. He only asked a few times what it was like to shoot dope and smoke crack he is a very kind and understanding person.
I owe my life to the one single event that made us meet, how do you tell someone that. I just wish i could say "if you ever see me as a famous person down the road please know its only because i met you that my life got fixed, only because you embodied the same ideas i do and have the same fun loving and caring personality that i do. How can someone whose never had to beg for money and steal understand the life that he managed to stop just by being who he is... I just wish i got to tell him how thankful i was to meet him.
This ones for you T, whether we see each other again or not you were crucial in all of what i have now. Anything i ever do now i have you to thank for in a sense. You restored my faith in myself and humanity.
Before we met my now ex g/f but still my best friend and i were IV heroin addicts. We had the typical IV heroin addict story, broke constantly trying to get money anyway we can. She was depressed and at worst suicidal i had completely lost direction in a sense. There was a time shortly before i met him that we were on methadone struggling to stay clean then one day i went to a show with the intent of finding molly. I found someone who would later introduce me to the only real friend ive made in a while.
Its funny because i always felt that it was all supported by pillars of sand and that at any point it could change. Its not the idea that i may have to source or pay more but does he even know how important his role was in 2 peoples recovery? I never told him that before we met we were so into heroin that I held my now ex g/f who overdosed in a drug den begging her to come back crying not to be left alone and how we were both so lost i didnt think there was a way out. It just so happened we met a friend and were able to resume smoking copious amounts of weed right when we needed it most that methadone worked. Through his friendship the girl i love grow more confident and started coming out to shows with us and enjoying her life more. Its because of him that we have the lives we do now.
How do you tell someone that its probably because of them that you have focus and direction back how through nothing more then friendship we were able to change our destiny. Its one thing to get clean its another thing to pick up a new life new friends and new activities... he facilitated all that provided a place we were welcome and never judged us. Hell he never even really asked left me around enough shit to feed my former heroin addiction for a few days and never wondered if i would disappear. He only asked a few times what it was like to shoot dope and smoke crack he is a very kind and understanding person.
I owe my life to the one single event that made us meet, how do you tell someone that. I just wish i could say "if you ever see me as a famous person down the road please know its only because i met you that my life got fixed, only because you embodied the same ideas i do and have the same fun loving and caring personality that i do. How can someone whose never had to beg for money and steal understand the life that he managed to stop just by being who he is... I just wish i got to tell him how thankful i was to meet him.
This ones for you T, whether we see each other again or not you were crucial in all of what i have now. Anything i ever do now i have you to thank for in a sense. You restored my faith in myself and humanity.
