Stimlover22
Bluelighter
I have a serious benzo habit, I went through my entire script of (15) Restoril 15mg in 24 hours and felt no effects (225mg total) ,didnt even sleep and no anxiety relief. I have a history of abusing the shit out of RC benzos like flubromazolam, etizolam and clonazolam(not Pam) until I ran out of both of those a couple weeks ago. I'm beyond amazed that I felt zero effect from Temazepam, being that it's a strong hypnotic.
I admit, it was definitely stupid to pop them like skittles but I kept hoping I would finally hit a sweet spot so I could pass the fuck out, since my tolerance was obviously rearing its head..
I just kept popping em every few hour or so and continued popping em because I simply couldn't sleep and was dying to fall asleep. I thought Temazepam was supposed to be a strong benzo, and I never feel jack shit from them. They almost feel like placebo to me.
I know my benzo tolerance is probably through the roof, but I can still take 4-5mgs of etizolam or 2mg of clonazolam and feel sorta relaxed for a good min, yet I'm flabbergasted that I absolutely feel zero effects at all from Restoril??
I've always been a chronic insomniac. My insomnia is so debilitating that I have been self-medicating myself with RC benzos for several (about 9) months now, after many a trial and error with several prescription non benzo sedatives he put me on such as trazodone, seroquel, remeron, and ambien and none of em ever worked for me.. this is what prompted my pdoc to finally write me a RX for Restoril recently.
I've never found any benzos to be euphoric, nor is that why I sought after RC benzos to self medicate my insomnia to begin with.. way before I finally scored a script for the temazepam. I'm psychologically and probably physically dependent.
I really don't wish to use them anymore and that's the truth, but the problem is that my mindset is so addictive that I feel I can't go without them in order to sleep.
I feel so lost, and I guess I played with fire and got burned this time. I haven't a clue how to break this vicious cycle. I'm not about to tell my doctor that I have self medicated myself this past year with RC benzos and that I can eat those restoril's like m&m's. I fear if I tell him about the RC's and my higher than hell tolerance.. that he will flag me as a drug abuser. I would probably get a taper plan I'm sure, but that's not worth the risk to me. Is it possible to taper oneself down using the RC analogue of diazepam "diclazepam", and if so how would I begin to figure out a taper plan?
I admit, it was definitely stupid to pop them like skittles but I kept hoping I would finally hit a sweet spot so I could pass the fuck out, since my tolerance was obviously rearing its head..
I just kept popping em every few hour or so and continued popping em because I simply couldn't sleep and was dying to fall asleep. I thought Temazepam was supposed to be a strong benzo, and I never feel jack shit from them. They almost feel like placebo to me.
I know my benzo tolerance is probably through the roof, but I can still take 4-5mgs of etizolam or 2mg of clonazolam and feel sorta relaxed for a good min, yet I'm flabbergasted that I absolutely feel zero effects at all from Restoril??
I've always been a chronic insomniac. My insomnia is so debilitating that I have been self-medicating myself with RC benzos for several (about 9) months now, after many a trial and error with several prescription non benzo sedatives he put me on such as trazodone, seroquel, remeron, and ambien and none of em ever worked for me.. this is what prompted my pdoc to finally write me a RX for Restoril recently.
I've never found any benzos to be euphoric, nor is that why I sought after RC benzos to self medicate my insomnia to begin with.. way before I finally scored a script for the temazepam. I'm psychologically and probably physically dependent.
I really don't wish to use them anymore and that's the truth, but the problem is that my mindset is so addictive that I feel I can't go without them in order to sleep.
I feel so lost, and I guess I played with fire and got burned this time. I haven't a clue how to break this vicious cycle. I'm not about to tell my doctor that I have self medicated myself this past year with RC benzos and that I can eat those restoril's like m&m's. I fear if I tell him about the RC's and my higher than hell tolerance.. that he will flag me as a drug abuser. I would probably get a taper plan I'm sure, but that's not worth the risk to me. Is it possible to taper oneself down using the RC analogue of diazepam "diclazepam", and if so how would I begin to figure out a taper plan?
