I need to be that girl.

[up all night]

I'm the wall you ran through
In your tragic state of animation
Which left a you-size hole
Where brick once stood.
I can still smell you here.
And I've looked
But nothing can fill your space
So even when you breathe the words
Just.
Passing.
Through.
I'll let you back
To feel whole again
To fill hole again
To give me one more chance to convince you to stay.
Hold my hand and smile
Pretend you won't leave again
So I can close my eyes and memorise the warmth
For next time you run.
But you're here
You're here
You're right here with me
And I don't care if I can taste heartbreak on your lips.
Blurring reality is easy....
Darkness breaks away
And pain is pushed to the future
As we slip through the cracks of sanity
No chance for thoughts or memories.
I'll close my mind and pretend I can't see your unfocussed eyes.
I still need you.
Fingers coming back to life in well known horizons
More then happy to understand
It's not a promise
Just a visit.
Kiss me now.
A sliver of the past slides back into view
Blink and its gone
But its enough to keep me trying
Because I'm sick of crying in the sad songs.
I need to be the girl who gets the boy.
[ 06 May 2002: Message edited by: up all night ]

 

[plazma]

OMFG!
This is absolutely brilliant. I really really really love your work.
If there's one definitive poem I've read on relationships and pain this is it!!!!
:D
-plaz out-

 

[Dagny]

Dear lord, sweetheart.
You just took my heart on an emotional roller coaster, and quite honestly, it will take me a minute to figure out whether I'm still upside down or not. Fucking brilliant.

 

[Young Alien Type]

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[harraser]

wow darls, Ive never heard your voice but I swear I could hear you singing this....
youre writing is trully amazing, and it touches my heart so much coz for so long I wanted nothing more than to be the boy who go the girl....
*hugs* darls youre beautiful

 

[Shuddr2Think]

wow..i feel this one.
good job.

 

[Sara Tonin]

For anyone who's been in a situation like this, similar dialog runs through your head, yet not quite as eloquent as this. Wonderfully perfect...

 

[rollEpollE]

Awesome. Wonderful ability.

 

[runawaygrrrl]

A sliver of the past slides back into view
Blink and its gone
But its enough to keep me trying
Because I'm sick of crying in the sad songs.
i feel ya.. definately.