I need this, more then I want it.

[dukecitydope1]

I need this, more then I want it.
That's what I chose to intro myself as a newbie here.
I'm Stephanie though by the way.

I find myself actually having a full day I remember with no clear hitting my system today, well I hope not for the most part. Can't tell if ive been sober two days or I am just on a new level of hallucinating thinking I'm sober, either way day 3 or 15 I need some sleep but I can't seem to want to shut my eyes. The shadows I see just bark they don't bite, half the time my own shadow doesn't want to follow me, so I'd understand if you chose to not keep reading. I choose to write here because as I've fallen into this whole deeper and deeper hole of drug abuse but over all I want to know that I'm ok. That I'm ok in the sense of I'm not the only one who feels like this. I went from not recalling some days at all, to thinking I was on top of everything. Now I'm alone and everyone gone, so I look for a piece of mind so to say... I'm 28 and I feel like I can't get control of my life. I need insider info.

 

[Kaden_Nite]

Hey, welcome to Bluelight. I can assure you that you're not the only one feeling like this. Losing memory and sleep can be really unpleasant, but as difficult as it can be to break habits, there's always a way.

Please check out Sober Living and The Dark Side and feel free to create a thread if you're looking for any advice

 

[CFC]

Hey Stephanie, welcome

I'd definitely check out those links Kaden listed above ^^ Read the threads, start one of your own. Don't be afraid to ask for advice, that's what we're all here for.

You definitely CAN get control of your life back, many have done it and so will you, because you want to

Good luck!
CFC