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I need support.. Anyone else going thru W/Ds??

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SececaRD

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Hey you all I havent posted in here for a while now, ive kind of been lerking around.

To make a long story short ive been messing up using heroin for the last few months. before that I had 2 and 1/2 years clean.

Well Ive gotten to the point again where I cant deal with this lifestyle anymore. Im to the point to where my family is starting to think Im using again. about 2 hours ago I took 2 mgs of Suboxone and Im not feeling too bad. My being board is whats killing me. It seems as though time is going really slow. I have 12 Mgs of Suboxone left that im gonna take over the next few days as needed.

If anyone has any uplifting advice or nice words to say that would be awsome. I gotta make it thru the next few days and make it to the other side.

Also who else is kicking now, lets stick by each other and support each other. WE CAN DO THIS!!!

Thanks
 
Hey brother. You hit a bump in the road but your mindset and heart are in the right place. I just finished withdrawals from oxys and fuck me was it horrible. Support is extremely important and thank god I have friends who don't use. If you do, I suggest leaning on them if you can. You've quit before and you CAN do it again. I wish you the best of luck brother.
 
Thats the problem.. no one knows that im using and they cant find out cause ill get dis owned..Sounds shitty, I know it is!!

So far im feel ok not 100%. I took about 1 more mg of sub. So far ive taked 3 mgs of sub. I also have some valium any suggestions on how to do the valium with the sub?? or should I even. Should I take 20mgs before bed?

Thanks OCEAN and Scott for the nice words.. Any advice will help thanks guys
 
Dude, save the valiums for when you run out of the subs. You're going to need them to get some decent sleep. Try to ween the subs too; if you've taken 3mgs today, see how you feel after 2mgs tomorrow. That'll leave you with 9mgs, so take 2mgs for another 2 days, then see if you can get yourself to take 1.5mgs or less the following days, until you run out.
 
I always get the time running slow thing too. It is enough to drive you almost mad sometimes. Time draws out like water dripping down a wall when being dopesick.

That will get better and the slower you taper kinda makes it more bearable. It's always the heebies jeebies i get after the sickness is over that gets to me though. Hopefully you havent been using long enough to get that again. Save the valium for that because youl need it after the subs run out. Although a valium or 2 wouldnt hurt while taking the subs just try and not use too much valium until after.

I am feeling kinda dopesick now or i was i should say now i just feel kinda crappy. I just took enough morphine to ward off the sickness. Ugh fucking hell
 
Wow it sounded like you were doing so good before. Kinda scary what can happen with a snap of the fingers. How and why did you start using again? I remember you saying something about your wife using and going back to rehab awhile back, did you use with her?

Anyways, you've done it once you can do it again.
 
bagochina said:
Anyways, you've done it once you can do it again.
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Couldn't say it any better. If you've done it once, you can definitely do it again! I too am going through long-term benzo withdrawals and am hoping I will soon see light at the end of the tunnel. Just keep up the work and stay strong!
 
Well, I haven't posted here for awhile, but I hear you man when you say you fucked up, cause so did I ,but no omentne, and like you said no one can no this because of the disownment.. I did some (at least I didnt slam it all the time, just twice)but it will and it is going tobe a bitch and I know it because I already did the hard part, but I was in jail that time. Now since I am out, I am scared that I will just start to use like I used to, but I am going to go to an inpatient.

The one ting that is keeping me goingis the wife. If you ever st Ieen a post of mine than you will unsderstand how much she means to me. So I havent stopped by run of smoking it but it will be ending soon and I am scared because I know its going to hurt, again.

So a really good way of stopping and making sure you really dont have a choice but to stop is to go away to a camp where they give you 3 hots and the most shittiest cit, if you get my meaning. Beat the shit out of someone you hate and do it in a public place. But since my brain knew there was no way to get it, it was easier. SOrry go to go, tootired.
 
What happened you asked:


First off I want to start by saying theres no excuse why I relapsed. But Yeah My wife had relapesed and all hell was breaking loose.. i WAS catchhing her in lie after lie. I went into a deep state of depression and went backto what I knew would numb me and take all my problems away. Well that worked for about a week now BAM back to square one again.

I know I can do it.. I just gotta get past the Shame and not be soo hard on myself.

Thanks guys for your replys guy ang gals!!
 
You'll get through this I think. Try to remember things you liked to do before you ever did a drug, even if that was a long time ago and you were young. You didn't always need that stuff, remember?
 
I just went cold turkey off of a huge suboxone/opiate/klonopin/xanax habit. I moved 6000 miles away and quit everything at once. That was about a month ago and im still not exactly right. Its hard to tell which substance is causing me what symptoms. The first two weeks were overpowered by suboxone withdrawal and now it seems to be a precipitated benzo withdrawal. Just know that things do get better. It is typically SLOW though. Nothing much happens over night. You gain a few percentages of your old self every day. Just keep at that. The worst will last you about five days, and then you start the slow climb out. Oh and I know exactly what you mean about time passing slowly. This past month has honestly felt like an entire year to me. I find myself completely lacking in patience because of that. It seems like people talking are just going on and on and on. Its really miserable but if you have some benzos its not bad at all. I didnt, and it was bad, worse than bad, but im swinging upward. Good luck.
 
Just a quick update, Im still clean going on 3 days now from a 3 to 4 month heroin bindge. I had nothing but a 8mg sub, some valium, and xanny bars, I just got the bars last nite, I took about 2 1/2 mgs of xanny last nite before bed and I beleive I slept about 8 hrs whick I cant beleive and I thank GOD for that. I fell pretty good although havent gotten out of bed yet so who know how Ill feel when I stand up. Im a bit sore all over. I just Shot aprox 1 1/2 mg sub and have avout 1 mg of sub left for tomarrow.

ALl in all im ok, yesterday I had to fight off the urge to want to use. Ive got some money so it be pretty easy to do but Im staying strong. I was blessed with a new job that I started on thurs and I dont wanna mess it up so Im staying strong.

Last time I used was wed nite maybe 7pm, when do you guys think the wds will be gone away?? THanks for your support guys

Sean
 
The only reason why im shooting them is cause I went into this detox with simply one 8mg Sub thats it to get me thru this. If I were to do it under my tounge id only get like 30% of it, if I snorted it Id get like 50% of it, IV you get 100% of it.. (BIO RATES)

I figured I could make a little go a long way shooting it.
 
Buddy I totally went through the same shit.
Keep being strong. Dope is a dirty substance. It's filthy and pathetic.
You NEVER want to go back. The nauseousness, the anxiety, the paranoia of being caught, none of that is fun. There comes a point where you must choose whether you what to live like this forever. Or you want to stop always worrying about dope and live your life the fullest w/o it. It's gunna be rough, but so damn worth it.
 
SececaRD said:
Also who else is kicking now, lets stick by each other and support each other. WE CAN DO THIS!!!
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Indeed we can.
Currently struggling with WDs myself. (Benzos though, not opiates/opioids)
Stay strong and if you ever need to talk don't hesitate to sene me a PM.

Definitely hold down the benzos until absolutely necessary.

With l<3ve and respect
-d_9
 
depending on hour responsible you are...get some OC and/or benzos and taper off...i imagine a few people succeed, but you know yourself better than anyone on here

good luck! and don't give up after your clean...life will suck for a while, you might be emo, bored, angry....but it'll take a while for you to get back to your old self
 
Well I just made it thru a big craving... I was in my car the call was made but I somehow backed out...

I never went down.... Alot of craps been going on in my life.. Got Friend of court papers today for court date.... My anxiety was thru the roof thats why I wanted to use.. Plus im in the middle of a divorce...... Im just soo messed up in the head..

Tickle.. You were right Im all emotional and shit... I gotta keep it together..
 
Be strong bro. It will go away in a few days. It isn't worth throwing everything away just for short term relief when you will just end up in the same mess anyway.

Once the WD is over you will be out of the mess.

I know you can do it. Just keep reminding yourself that you don't want to prolong your misery.
 
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