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Alprazolam8129

Alprazolam8129

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ok well im offically addicted to opiates again. weed just bores me even though i have like killer kush i still find it boring and not stimulating like an opiate like vicodin im done with heroin offically i just cant seem to get over these cravings no one knows about my addiction ive been keeping this a secrete for 9 months and still don't plan to tell anyone. but i need help and i have the worst cravings i don't know how to handle it its like i need vicodin to get me through the day and every muthafuckin dealer always gets ripped or has to go get them first and i need to give them the money first(getting ripped off;burnt) what the fuck do i do!?
 
Wait, are you addicted to heroin or vicodin? What may help you want to get clean is to think about how much those people you buy from have ripped you off, do you really want to support people who dont care about you?
 
i was addicted to heroin now im clean from that after my overdose and now im addicted to vicodin like im not happy with out it like idk what to do i cant escaspe this feeling right nw im extremely depressed. my girlfriend that i used to love sooo fuckin much has now jus become ehh when it comes to vicodin i get an amazing spark that i want it so bad i need to stop but i cant i dont know waht to do please help me.
 
You're only not happy without it because you are addicted to it. Once you get clean I promise things will get better.. If you can't go CT I wouldsuggest getting on suboxone or methadone as a last resort to keep you away from opiates. You have to want to get clean for yourself for it to happen. Good luck, it'll be hard but so worth it getting your life back.
 
Brother, I was in the SAME exact situation as you last week. Im also a recovering heroin addict and recently relapsed for 6 months on vicodin and oxycontin. I was spending a ridiculous amount of money and was about to go back to heroin....

I talked to my family, and in my instance, I decided to go back on suboxone before my addiction became any worse. This may not be something your interested in, but it got me straight before I gravitated to the hard stuff again.

Take it on step at a time and get yourself right. However that may be, I wish you the best of luck man.
 
i want to quit but then again i don't want to? like how do you cope with that it just feels theres no way out..
 
I know exactly how you feel there! It's definitely a love/hate relationship I've got going. I love to take em and I hate to take em. In my case though, unless I want to deal with horrible pain day after day after day ... I've gotta take em.

I think first of all you really have to decide whether or not you really want to quit.
 
Alprazolam8129 said:
i want to quit but then again i don't want to? like how do you cope with that it just feels theres no way out..
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It sounds like you may not be ready to quit. I know the feeling. I still suggest maybe trying suboxone. It kills all my opiate cravings and keeps me out of wd without really getting me high. It allows you to buy clean time, and its not methadone(which I would hardly suggest for something like hydrocodone).

It sounds like you may not be ready. Only you can decide when that is. An addicts mind will always tell them to keep using, so take that with a grain of salt before things get any worse. You may say you wont do heroin now, but later down the road when your tolerance is sitting pretty and you're running out of money, it may be the only choice to keep your addiction going. Dont put yourself in that position.
 
The post acute withdrawl symtoms, IE Depression lasts a VERY VERY long time, 6-8 months bro
It's gonna be a long ride.

good luck man


The best thing for you to do is to hit the gym man
 
^^as you said hit the gym; your right just working out releases all the pain anger hate sadness everything. But i still get cravings i might try suboxone? idk yet ill post back with info.
 
Alprazolam8129 said:
ok well im offically addicted to opiates again. weed just bores me even though i have like killer kush i still find it boring and not stimulating like an opiate like vicodin im done with heroin offically i just cant seem to get over these cravings no one knows about my addiction ive been keeping this a secrete for 9 months and still don't plan to tell anyone. but i need help and i have the worst cravings i don't know how to handle it its like i need vicodin to get me through the day and every muthafuckin dealer always gets ripped or has to go get them first and i need to give them the money first(getting ripped off;burnt) what the fuck do i do!?
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it sounds like you got ripped off a few too many times
 
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