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todd6414

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I was sober before for a long time. I slipped again recently on opiates and afraid of withdrawal. I haven't had an opiate addiction for 13 years. Heres the past week.

Wednesday I made the dumb decision to get an 8mg Dilaudid. (which Ive never done before) I broke it into 4 pieces and snorted them every 3 hours of so through the whole night. I really didn't sleep, cant sleep on these things.

Thursday I got 2 and same thing, broke into 4's and did all eight by the next day at like 3PM.

Friday night got 5 more and been snorting them in 1/4's since. I want to stop and realize the only way this heads but Im afraid of withdrawel.

Do you think I'll withdraw from this? At the very least I know I'll be depressed and hopeless for a few days. My ears are open to any suggestions.

Noah
 
Hi Noah. I've been in your shoes before and this is my experience. whether or not it will be true for you, i don't know. 3 days of opiate use, like you described, could cause fairly minor physical withdrawal. the psychological withdrawal may be more pronounced, and i find it harder to deal with. that being said, at least you realize you want to get clean. if meetings are your thing, try to find one. hopefully you can find someone positive to talk to, and figure out why you relapsed it the first place. you'll feel a lot better in a couple days. candy and hot baths will help. best of luck to you
 
8 pills in 3 days with hardly cause any withdrawls. What brought you back to using after 13 years?
 
Mehm said:
8 pills in 3 days with hardly cause any withdrawls. What brought you back to using after 13 years?
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I'd also be intersted in hearing more of the back story. Not that I want to dig into your issues, but what caused your relapse may save me or someone else for that matter one day from that situation that caused you to think you needed to take a drug.
 
Heres my repy

Here I go again. Told my friends now and starting today. Night time on day 2 is whats killing me with the sleeplessness and RL. My doctor gave me Roboxin for the legs. What do you guys think.
 
The story

After building the best life in AA. College degree, married, sponsees, step groups, bout first home, etc. Then I started studying for CPA exams(another miracle gift from recovery). I though I would be fine to take Dexedrine (a stimulant) to help me study and the beast was released. Soon I needed something to bring me down at night and started taking a few pain killers here and there. Boy addiction never goes away! So here I am now, been 12 days on dilaudid or roxy with a couple days off during that span. I know how this goes and where this heads. I have everything to live for and to lose. Ive tried to quit twice with very little withdrawal symptoms, some stomach issues, lethargic, minor aches. But on that second night the sleeplessness and RLS drive me up a wall. Went to my doc and he gave me Robaxon for the legs, said it would help and I just have to ride it out. Im such a *&^%^$ with this shit!
 
While physical WDs are different for every person and even different for each time WDing, as I'm sure you are aware of from past experience. If it were me I would chalk it up to yet another hard life lesson and press on, go back to what helped you the first time. Rebuild your (obviously strong) support system. Don't dwell or beat yourself up on the slip, and fix (as best you can) the reason for the slip.

What I did every time the physical WDs like not being able to sleep or the legs was the worst, was either to try and get something done at night, drive, or tighten up ALL the muscles in my body as tight and for as long as I could hold it the relax. I found that Benadryl met with disaster (ironic I know).

Best of luck to you (and me) at staying clean!
 
Thanks for the support. I have friends coming over tonight and taking me out tomorrow night to meeting. Does anyone know if robaxon helps with the RLS? I'm going to try and stay super busy and do some exercise, hopefully that will help some. I trying to stay positive, maybe it wont be so bad.
 
Hey man hang in there...the fact you have gained so much shows me that there is turnaround after addiction. I find that I do better when I rat myself out like you did here on blue light. My suggestion is don't beat yourself up. Just do the next right thing
 
I didn't even pick the Roboxin up. Today is day 2 so I imagine it should be the worst day. Last night I went to bed at 12 woke up at 2 and got back to sleep at 3:30 (after a hot shower) thank God. Today lose stomach and runny nose so far. Meeting from work at 5:30. Last night was the worst feeling ever. Im never going through this again! Time is my only friend but soon Ill look back and be so happy.
 
This sucks! If anyone is thinking of trying this again. DONT! I just keep saying, "I never have to feel like this again". But nothing takes the pain away. If there's a God I hope he hears me. Not sure who Im talking to BTW but I know someone somewhere is hearing me and it just helps to write on here for some reason.
 
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