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Bluelighter
hello slr. I met a girl just under two weeks ago on tinder. i grew quite attached emotionally and i finally met her yesterday. The meeting was as far as i was concerned, just to make sure we are attracted to each other and it was supposed to be the beginning of something good(we have shared pics). I have told her about my past (drugs, heroin, prison), and i've been out of prison for two years and still going strong and staying clear of trouble (still in suboxone though).
She was having trouble taking everything in, she said it was easier to deal with with a distance (my past), but when i was in front of her in her face, she was just overwhelmed and she said she needed time. I took this as the fact that she was not attracted to me and she was trying to dump me gently. I was so hurt that everything could just disappear because i must not look attractive, and so i lashed out on her. I forgot that I have a pretty heavy past and carry a bit of baggage.
Making someone grow attached and then shooting them down because of looks was just so unnacceptable and so mean to me, i had to tell her how i felt about it. And i told her that there was someone who was just like her, and if she could give me advice on what i did, and what not to do now that its over
I cant take back anything i said, and i said it all out of pain. I felt like if someone thought messing with someones emotions like that was okay, i HAD to give them a peice of my mind and i did.
I never said anything directly insulting but what i did was not okay and I am just confused. I'm not experienced with relationships but I thought i was ready for one. I dont know how to acta nd I dont want to be needy and clingy. Please slr please someone give me some advice and opinions. I am lost. I am sad that I wasn't understanding and I acted out of emotions.
She was having trouble taking everything in, she said it was easier to deal with with a distance (my past), but when i was in front of her in her face, she was just overwhelmed and she said she needed time. I took this as the fact that she was not attracted to me and she was trying to dump me gently. I was so hurt that everything could just disappear because i must not look attractive, and so i lashed out on her. I forgot that I have a pretty heavy past and carry a bit of baggage.
Making someone grow attached and then shooting them down because of looks was just so unnacceptable and so mean to me, i had to tell her how i felt about it. And i told her that there was someone who was just like her, and if she could give me advice on what i did, and what not to do now that its over
I cant take back anything i said, and i said it all out of pain. I felt like if someone thought messing with someones emotions like that was okay, i HAD to give them a peice of my mind and i did.
I never said anything directly insulting but what i did was not okay and I am just confused. I'm not experienced with relationships but I thought i was ready for one. I dont know how to acta nd I dont want to be needy and clingy. Please slr please someone give me some advice and opinions. I am lost. I am sad that I wasn't understanding and I acted out of emotions.
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