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Ok, how to begin.
On Saturday my friend lets name him M(guy) picked me up to go to his "kick back" he was going to have. He(M) picks me up and his friend (J) is with him. We arrive to his apartment and his cousin was there(its a her). Two other adults were there but they left about 20mins after we had arrived. Let me just get straight to the point. It was only 6 of us. 4 girls, including me, my friend and his friend. We played Kings Cup, i think thats what its called. And I remember only having two drinks. Vodka smirnoff with pink lemonade juice. My friend(M) had mad them for me. Anyway I feel sick go use the restroon and make myself throw up so I wouldn't end up passing out. I get out and they're all in my friends cousin's room. So I stand my the doorway the whole time they tell me to go lay down with them I say I'm ok staying here. A few mins pass by they are just talking about nonsense things and then the guy(J) said he was going to the kitchen to get my drink and that I should go with him. So I do. We end up kissing and go into my friends (M's) room. he closes the door. At first I was going along with everything, I was tipsy and dizzyish. We start having sex but then I just told him to stop he wouldn't. He started getting really rough and thats when the pain begin. I was trying to push him away and back off. eventually i backed off enough for him to stop. But he thrusts back inside me and i keep telling to stop and trying to push him off of me. The pain was getting worse and worse. Finally I push him with all my force and told him i told you to stop! Call M! tell him i want him here. So he puts his clothe on and leaves to get him.
M comes into the room, I'm half naked but covered with the blanket, only my jeans where off. I tell him what had happened and he asks me if he wants me to beat him up and I was just crying because of the pain and how much it hurt me that he wouldnt stop. I started feeling nauses so i throw up on his floor. he said its ok your ok. I try to get my jeans but he tells me to lay down. but Im stubbling trying to get my jeans but he trys to get me back to sitting. I do end up putting my jeans falling on the floor. but he lifts me up to the bed and lays me down. he starts touching me while im all thinking wtf? why is he dong this to me. He starts feeling on my hips and I tell him to stop. unbuttoning my jeans i try to pull them back up with his pulling them down. Me feeling so confused nasues and wanting to throw up laying down so weak, yet i push his hans tell him no please dont please. he still enters me pushing me back on the bed everytime i try to sit up. I tried to push him so many times. Was telling him I trusted you why are you doing this to me! I trusted you get off of me stop it please all he says is whats wrong will he's going inside me and having having sex with me while obviously i didnt want to. I kept telling him I trusted you. yet he still continued. He then stop. I'm crying putting my jeans on. He's like whats wrong.
I try to get out of the room he keeps holding me back. I get out of the room though and one of the girls just tells me well you knew your limits and you drank you should be more responsible and this and that basically telling me you wanted this.
Yes. I know I drank. At first it was sex but then he was being rough and I told him to stop several times. I know what was going on and I didn't want to continue with it or wanted to have sex with M. I was in pain/confused/ heart broken that my friend that I trusted would do such a thing to me!
None of them wanted to take me home except J, I guess thats when it hit him. he felt so guilty. he was telling them ill take her home idc i'll take her. the 3 girls and M were saying no! she needs to get a ride. J calls a cab. the whole time we were waiting he said sorry your a really sweet girl i still want to keep talking to you and this and that. all i wanted to do was curl up and cry. the cab comes J pays and I leave there before I left M was like its kool idk what I did wrong ama delete your number bye. J hugs me says sorry a million times and I get in the cab and leave.
Do you consider this as rape? I do but, is it really?
I'm scared to press charges. I went to the hospital yesterdays because I was bleeding and when I go use the restroom it hurts so much. It burns only a lil when I pee. But I was bleeding because they tore the tissue inside my anus. I'm sorry if it sounds gross. But when I went to the hospital the doctor said they had to notify the police. So they wrote up the report. Ihave todaya nd tomorrow to press charges if I want. But I'm really scared that if I do I might be in danger. Help me. Please give me advice.
Right now I'm in so much pain physically, mentally, and emotionally I just literally feel like being alone crying my eyes out and some what kill myself.
I'm sorry for the long post. I just need help.
On Saturday my friend lets name him M(guy) picked me up to go to his "kick back" he was going to have. He(M) picks me up and his friend (J) is with him. We arrive to his apartment and his cousin was there(its a her). Two other adults were there but they left about 20mins after we had arrived. Let me just get straight to the point. It was only 6 of us. 4 girls, including me, my friend and his friend. We played Kings Cup, i think thats what its called. And I remember only having two drinks. Vodka smirnoff with pink lemonade juice. My friend(M) had mad them for me. Anyway I feel sick go use the restroon and make myself throw up so I wouldn't end up passing out. I get out and they're all in my friends cousin's room. So I stand my the doorway the whole time they tell me to go lay down with them I say I'm ok staying here. A few mins pass by they are just talking about nonsense things and then the guy(J) said he was going to the kitchen to get my drink and that I should go with him. So I do. We end up kissing and go into my friends (M's) room. he closes the door. At first I was going along with everything, I was tipsy and dizzyish. We start having sex but then I just told him to stop he wouldn't. He started getting really rough and thats when the pain begin. I was trying to push him away and back off. eventually i backed off enough for him to stop. But he thrusts back inside me and i keep telling to stop and trying to push him off of me. The pain was getting worse and worse. Finally I push him with all my force and told him i told you to stop! Call M! tell him i want him here. So he puts his clothe on and leaves to get him.
M comes into the room, I'm half naked but covered with the blanket, only my jeans where off. I tell him what had happened and he asks me if he wants me to beat him up and I was just crying because of the pain and how much it hurt me that he wouldnt stop. I started feeling nauses so i throw up on his floor. he said its ok your ok. I try to get my jeans but he tells me to lay down. but Im stubbling trying to get my jeans but he trys to get me back to sitting. I do end up putting my jeans falling on the floor. but he lifts me up to the bed and lays me down. he starts touching me while im all thinking wtf? why is he dong this to me. He starts feeling on my hips and I tell him to stop. unbuttoning my jeans i try to pull them back up with his pulling them down. Me feeling so confused nasues and wanting to throw up laying down so weak, yet i push his hans tell him no please dont please. he still enters me pushing me back on the bed everytime i try to sit up. I tried to push him so many times. Was telling him I trusted you why are you doing this to me! I trusted you get off of me stop it please all he says is whats wrong will he's going inside me and having having sex with me while obviously i didnt want to. I kept telling him I trusted you. yet he still continued. He then stop. I'm crying putting my jeans on. He's like whats wrong.
I try to get out of the room he keeps holding me back. I get out of the room though and one of the girls just tells me well you knew your limits and you drank you should be more responsible and this and that basically telling me you wanted this.
Yes. I know I drank. At first it was sex but then he was being rough and I told him to stop several times. I know what was going on and I didn't want to continue with it or wanted to have sex with M. I was in pain/confused/ heart broken that my friend that I trusted would do such a thing to me!
None of them wanted to take me home except J, I guess thats when it hit him. he felt so guilty. he was telling them ill take her home idc i'll take her. the 3 girls and M were saying no! she needs to get a ride. J calls a cab. the whole time we were waiting he said sorry your a really sweet girl i still want to keep talking to you and this and that. all i wanted to do was curl up and cry. the cab comes J pays and I leave there before I left M was like its kool idk what I did wrong ama delete your number bye. J hugs me says sorry a million times and I get in the cab and leave.
Do you consider this as rape? I do but, is it really?
I'm scared to press charges. I went to the hospital yesterdays because I was bleeding and when I go use the restroom it hurts so much. It burns only a lil when I pee. But I was bleeding because they tore the tissue inside my anus. I'm sorry if it sounds gross. But when I went to the hospital the doctor said they had to notify the police. So they wrote up the report. Ihave todaya nd tomorrow to press charges if I want. But I'm really scared that if I do I might be in danger. Help me. Please give me advice.
Right now I'm in so much pain physically, mentally, and emotionally I just literally feel like being alone crying my eyes out and some what kill myself.
I'm sorry for the long post. I just need help.
... This is something that should be taken up with the law imo.. People need to know of their thoughtless behavior. I hope they go to jail where someone will give them eye for an eye justice... Best wishes for you