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I miss my one and only son.

sonicwhite

sonicwhite

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Guys in Va everything was going good. It wasn’t without its challenges and yes I was abusing gabapentin and Lyrica constantly and always running out early so I had to go to work feeling terrible. What I’m trying to say is Drugs will give you a hunger that will never be satisfied. It will lock you in. I’m sure there are many dope dealers who won’t like what I say.


The Way creation is made up is you mess w the innocent. Things bad start happening to you, you’ll eventually find yourself in the cross hairs of a cop. It’s just the way the Order goes.


What is, and always fervently will be my greatest creation. Is my son and no drug could ever cause me to not love Him more. Yea you may find yourself in vices and what not. But that kid comes first. It’s coming upon a whole yr that I haven’t seen him. Cuz I was kicked out rightfully so. I was living in my car. And ultimately I had to go back to my house where my family is.


I knew nothing about what I was about to get into before I met Christina, but the truth of the matter is you won’t fall in love will a woman that is a robot and what I mean by that is that you need physical contact to get to know a person before you leap into anything.


Our relationship was doomed before it really started. I lost my best friend overnight. It wasn’t ad painful as in the past but i confided in her many times and we would bounce off each other and grow together, but it was doomed before it ever started. My son is what I need to focus on to be the dad he needs me to be.


Anyways just know you who sell drugs to ppl for greed which I will never understand. There is a Day everyone will be accountable for what they do. You may escape punishment here on earth. No amount of money ever and I mean RVER bought a second of time. As Tony Stark would say and there is a lot of truth and wisdom in that.


Anyways love y’all and I’m praying for you guys!
 
Sounds like it is time to focus on your son rather than all the substances abused in the last few years. No judgements it took me decades to figure this out you got a head start dont let it go.
Focusing energies to build rather than destroy is much more rewarding but also more excruciatingly paradoxical and laborious.
YMMV
 
Trust me, God is working in me in A Powerful way. Not preaching. Let these be the seeds someone else water and build off this foundation.

A house divided against itself shall not stand ever!!!
 
To blame drug dealers is silly. There are many drugs that people have loving, enjoyable experiences on. Even when someone is addicted, they are making the choice and it helps them get through the day. It’s simply a free market among adults. To paint a dealer as evil simply because some people destroy their lives with drugs is naive and oversimplistic.
 
RDP89 said:
To blame drug dealers is silly. There are many drugs that people have loving, enjoyable experiences on. Even when someone is addicted, they are making the choice and it helps them get through the day. It’s simply a free market among adults. To paint a dealer as evil simply because some people destroy their lives with drugs is naive and oversimplistic.
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Agreed. The drug dealer is no more responsible for the damage done to customers as a car company is responsible if you crash a car you bought from them. We all make our choices. We are all responsible for our own downfalls.
 
RDP89 said:
To blame drug dealers is silly. There are many drugs that people have loving, enjoyable experiences on. Even when someone is addicted, they are making the choice and it helps them get through the day. It’s simply a free market among adults. To paint a dealer as evil simply because some people destroy their lives with drugs is naive and oversimplistic.
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Provided most dealers are people selling to maintain their own habits, blaming them seems rather unproductive. Sure, even I had a dealer who didn't use and sold and absolutely he was in it for the money, since he was price gouging, but at the end of the day I made the choice to buy from him a couple of times after he raised his prices because he promised better quality and I made the choice not to when I realised he was lying.

I've had plenty of nice enough dealers, some who unfortunately ran on tweaker time. But they've always sorted me when they've fucked up a deal and I've been comfortable allowing them into my house. The same can't be said for all of them, lol.

It's the cartels that I'd place more of the blame on. But legalisation would stop that.
 
Eligiu said:
Provided most dealers are people selling to maintain their own habits, blaming them seems rather unproductive. Sure, even I had a dealer who didn't use and sold and absolutely he was in it for the money, since he was price gouging, but at the end of the day I made the choice to buy from him a couple of times after he raised his prices because he promised better quality and I made the choice not to when I realised he was lying.

I've had plenty of nice enough dealers, some who unfortunately ran on tweaker time. But they've always sorted me when they've fucked up a deal and I've been comfortable allowing them into my house. The same can't be said for all of them, lol.

It's the cartels that I'd place more of the blame on. But legalisation would stop that.
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Yeah, in the end legalization and regulation is the only thing that will put a stop to it. The black market and all of the horrible things that come with it will always exist as long as there is demand and profit to be made. Even in countries with the most draconian drug sentencing laws it still exists. That just proves that no amount of legislation can stop it.
 
Nope! The Love of money is the root of all sorts of evil. Yes it's to keep them high. You touch or even tempt my son with drugs that's something totally different. I didn't ever feel like I could kill someone but that would do it.

Touching me is one thing, touching my child is something else entirely. Look, I want the best for everyone. Yes Liquor is a drug. And since it's legal it's fallen thru the hands of a Provedentially Sovereign God. So I see all these weed shops popping up everywhere. He wants it. I will tell you tho. When you see the Abomination that causes desolation spoken of by Daniel the prophet. Let the reader understand.

What have I told all of yall from the beginning. That you'll see me going around the world preaching the Gospel. I hope and yearn to be poured out like a drink offering. That I'm Martyred even tho that term already applies to me. I wanna spit in Neros face. THE Anti-Christ spirit is so bad I see the coming is at hand. The Prophets all said it's about to happen. After Jesus went to Heaven to sit at the Right Hand of God IT is the last days. Time is so fleeting. And in a month I'll see this post and think wow!. I no longer abuse my meds. It's so comforting waking up knowing I don't have to worry about withdraws.

If I didn't care about yall I wouldn't say these things at all. I love yall deeply. The Plug that got me back into meth started slowing introducing cartel crap that's deadly. I knew because meth is not suppose to bubble in the glass. Not only did you make me mad, he pissed God off. He keeps running into cops every week. Not that I said anything. I didn't. I just know MY FATHER WELL ENOUGH IS THAT HE HATES THOSE WHO TRY TO TEMPT AND MAKE HIS CHILDREN stumble. That's why I love these forums. Because you guys don't really even see you're helping God by telling ppl what to do. The dangers of what could happen if you mix these drugs together. I care about yall but not just about this life but I have a NDE, I know what outerdarkness feels like. So please. Just keep everyone safe. I used to smoke three eight balls a day. I was so badly hurt by not drinking water or eating that my skin was tint green. I knew death was eminent. Going to jail however was probably divine intervention. Crazy huh?



ANYWAYS, off my pulpit. Take good care of yall ok? Much Love in JC name.
 
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