Soflasober
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jan 30, 2019
- Messages
- 10
Anyways I?ve been on iv coke heroin for 5 years. It?s crazy thinking back that I?ve literally lost 5 years of my life over this shit.
I originally started using drugs because of the great feelings it gave me. Sooner than later I discovered I was enduldging in drugs to simply avoid myself and my own emotions.
I?ve had enough. I?ve sacrificed my life for something that only keeps me from succeeding and now any kind of positive emotion scares me. I do not know what it is to laugh or feel any sort of integrity.
Ive always felt like my actions were based off someone else?s decisions and everything I did was dictated in a sort of way. I just want the old me back. I miss my family. I know I sound like every other addict but everything has came from the heart.
I need to learn how to and accept that I deserve to have a connection with others.
I originally started using drugs because of the great feelings it gave me. Sooner than later I discovered I was enduldging in drugs to simply avoid myself and my own emotions.
I?ve had enough. I?ve sacrificed my life for something that only keeps me from succeeding and now any kind of positive emotion scares me. I do not know what it is to laugh or feel any sort of integrity.
Ive always felt like my actions were based off someone else?s decisions and everything I did was dictated in a sort of way. I just want the old me back. I miss my family. I know I sound like every other addict but everything has came from the heart.
I need to learn how to and accept that I deserve to have a connection with others.