I love you, fuck you, who are you, where were we again?

[mashead testing]

You can send these thoughts to me
and I will accept them as reality
but who knows if reality is real
who knows what I do truely feel
I can sit here all day
and wish for it to go away
but its here and its here to stay
who does not question it anyway
What it is,
a light, something that shines
a noise, something we interpret as sound
a touch, something I have never found
But as I take this soul and make it mine
I lack the ingeniuty to engineer love
for everyone who has ever felt my eyes
I can look down at the past and wave goodbye
This is what I wanted
this is how it turned out to be
as I didnt stick to what I was hoping for
I can now achieve my own reality
But take me, fool me, fuck me and screw me
you can never hurt me or so id like to think
every chance, every tiny little chance you get
is all that I can see, all that I will be
Never, im not going down
you will not see me fall
as I push these reaccuring thoughts out of me
ride the wave of insecurity
I will not fake or cheat, to live
knowing that my life will stick on repeat
the only thing I have to do is give
fear not or recognise, taste my suprise
However this will end,
I know your not pretend, you are me
I am you, I am me, you are you
we are us and together no more pain
but.....
Its so not true, you live the life of a mirror
a mirror of everything around you
reflecting your personality from others
try and hide from me but I will blow your cover
This is how it was meant to be
but not how it will be for much longer
I grow stronger everyday until I can break away
for love is nothing compared to hurt
Everyday I feel you fall from grace
not knowing what to expect you fear the worst
but I am not going to let myself get hurt
for inner battles I have won
Taken different perspective from you
lived from you as a part of you
but ive grown from you and now we must part
the time as come for me to split from your heart

 

[KAZ]

perfect.

 

[E-girl]

I can now achieve my own reality
this is a great line, and an awesome personal motto. you ought to etch it into the corners of your mind and live by it sweetheart.