Sometimes he frustrates the heck out of me! He's spending the weekend here but since he doesn't sleep much during the week all he wants to do is sleep when he's here. And I don't like going to bed at 1 am and waking up at noon. I can't sleep that much! And usually he just wants to party nonstop, sometimes til like way too early in the morning, when I can barely function, and I don't want to do that many drugs! I don't like hallucinating due to lack of sleep. Then we have to sleep for like ten hours.
I love parties BUT if we get there at 10 pm, I don't want to stay til 7 am because I will get tired around like 3 or something. I dunno.
Tonight is the first night we aren't sleeping at the same time. I'm not tired because we slept til noon today and I'm not used to going to bed this early plus I was super pumped and expecting us to do something, I dunno what.
It's weird though, like I feel like I'm tired at normal times. Sometimes he wants to go to bed at 9 pm and other times he wants to stay up all night and sleep at 7 am. I like normal times better - like every day 2 am or something. I can't stand him changing and it's always HE gets to go to bed when HE wants.
We like to cuddle and sleep together but I can't stay still (ADD kinda thing) and so if I'm not tired it is so hard to sleep! Now he's lying in bed and I'm like fuck it I'm not wasting time in bed! It is boring to lie there.
Especially when we won't have sex because he never seems to want it anymore
Like we have sex every other weekend, that's all. Urggg.
And he blames everything on me!! Like whenever he gets mad, it's always my fault. And I'm tired of it! He makes a mess in the kitchen or something and he's just like "fuck [myname] fuck" even if I wasn't near it. I'm just like whatever and I leave. He knows AFTER that it wasn't my fault but DURING he always blames it on me!
UGH ugh ugh.
I love parties BUT if we get there at 10 pm, I don't want to stay til 7 am because I will get tired around like 3 or something. I dunno.
Tonight is the first night we aren't sleeping at the same time. I'm not tired because we slept til noon today and I'm not used to going to bed this early plus I was super pumped and expecting us to do something, I dunno what.
It's weird though, like I feel like I'm tired at normal times. Sometimes he wants to go to bed at 9 pm and other times he wants to stay up all night and sleep at 7 am. I like normal times better - like every day 2 am or something. I can't stand him changing and it's always HE gets to go to bed when HE wants.
We like to cuddle and sleep together but I can't stay still (ADD kinda thing) and so if I'm not tired it is so hard to sleep! Now he's lying in bed and I'm like fuck it I'm not wasting time in bed! It is boring to lie there.
Especially when we won't have sex because he never seems to want it anymore
Like we have sex every other weekend, that's all. Urggg.
And he blames everything on me!! Like whenever he gets mad, it's always my fault. And I'm tired of it! He makes a mess in the kitchen or something and he's just like "fuck [myname] fuck" even if I wasn't near it. I'm just like whatever and I leave. He knows AFTER that it wasn't my fault but DURING he always blames it on me!
UGH ugh ugh.