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I know you don't want to hurt me...

Bi KaNd*E* RaVeR

Bi KaNd*E* RaVeR

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When I'm with you... I feel so safe
Though you are so much smaller then me
and completely helpless to defend yourself
let alone protect me
I know nothing could cause me pain when you are near
I could lay in your arms forever
just silent, or listening to the words you tell me that no one has said before
words that no one but you could ever make me believe
feeling your tiny, weak fingers run through my hair and down the back of my neck
nothing has ever felt so good and so right
and nothing has ever hurt so much..
then when I feel your touch get weaker
when I see your body get smaller
and hear your breathing get worse
I'm scared to leave your side when I'm with you
I'm scared it might be the last time I see you
Every time you say "I love u"
I wonder if it's the last time I'll hear it
What will I do without you?
I've never felt anything like this before from anyone
Will I ever again?
Will I have the strength to move on?
I'm scared to ask you, how much time you have left
I know you know, and I know you don't want to tell me
as your muscles weaken, and you loose more and more mobility
I cry alone and never let you know it hurts..
cause I know its the last thing you would ever want to do to me
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~*Princess Jen
Head of the Right Coast BLT Crew and Official Leg Humper of the SBS.
~No, I don't know anything, Imma KandyKidd. =oT
Friends dont let friends get MULLETS!-Got it Jay? =oP
*Don't frown, 'cause you never know when someone is falling in love with your smile*
 
wow baby...this is really, well...wrenching...
you know, that if u need to talk, i am here...~~~***huge hug***~~~
peace
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***"without deviation from the norm, progress is not possible"f.zappa***
BE AN AGENT OF CHANGE
"one good thing about music, when it hits, you feel no pain"-marley
"there is a party in my mind, and i hope it never stops, there is a party up there allt he time, we are gonna party till we drop"d.byrne
***satori shalom***
 
Okay. Ive gotten a couple emails on this.. and a lil background..
my BF has a fatal disease that he got when he was 9. Since then he has been gettin weaker (hes in a wheelchair now) and is slowly losing mobility, and muscle in his body. It huts me to see him like this.. tho i know i cant stop it. It's like hes disapearing b4 my eyes sometimes. and it hurts so much.. but there is nothing id rather do then be with him.. and no one makes me feel like he does.. and i wouldnt give what we have up for anything..
it's pretty much like.. i figure we were put together for a reason. he has taught me so much, and he believes that i helped him deal with everything so much better then he was b4 he met me. So when he does go.. i know its going to hurt me for a long time.. but i know that it will be okay in time... and that i've learned and loved - things that i couldn't get any other way.
Thanks for reading.. and email me if ya want i will answer.
and Shafie.. *muuuah* thanks babe!
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~*Princess Jen
Head of the Right Coast BLT Crew and Official Leg Humper of the SBS.
~No, I don't know anything, Imma KandyKidd. =oT
Friends dont let friends get MULLETS!-Got it Jay? =oP
*Don't frown, 'cause you never know when someone is falling in love with your smile*
 
Your words brought tears to my eyes, and believe me, I am jaded. The mix of love and pain, and your perception of how he tries to hide this from you to spare you was especially touching. Keep writing, girl! I've found it saves my sanity...
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"And I don't want the world to see me because I don't think that they'd understand..."
-Rob Thomas (Matchbox 20)
~~Shana~~
 
Oh my...I...I don't even know what to say.
I don't even believe in a god, but bless you for who you are. Thank you for just existing. It breaks my heart in such a wonderful way to see people like you, Bi Kand*E...to know that you exist. Please continue to break it in that fashion.
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[This message has been edited by Mr. Sticky (edited 16 February 2001).]
 
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