I haven't been blogging much lately. Mostly because my brain is too befuddled from benzo and meth withdrawals. I've been off meth for at least two weeks (I think), and I'm now dropping my diazepam by 1mg every fortnight - I'm now on 19mg's a day. Apparently the hardest part is when you drop below 20mg's, so I guess I've got a lot of suffering ahead! The thing that scares me the most about benzo withdrawal is the seizures. I get them really bad. 
I've got a review coming up next week for my welfare payments which is stressing me out a bit. My doc has written a medical certificate for me, saying I can't work due to major depression and polysubstance dependence, so I know I'll be ok but I still worry. WINZ (the department of Work and Income New Zealand) are like the Spanish inquisition! During my last review the pen-pusher was constantly asking me when I'll be ready to start working, even though my doctor had stated "not in the foreseeable future." I don't like having to live off other people's taxes, but right now I don't really have a choice. I'd work if I could, but I can't.
Anyway, that's the latest in my life. I've been spending a lot of time in Auckland with drug_wench (we're back together now, and our relationship is stronger than ever since we've been off meth!), and returning to my home city for a couple of days each week for probation, appointments and medication pick-ups. My mood has been up and down a lot, but I guess that's to be expected when you're coming off two drugs at once!![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
I've got a review coming up next week for my welfare payments which is stressing me out a bit. My doc has written a medical certificate for me, saying I can't work due to major depression and polysubstance dependence, so I know I'll be ok but I still worry. WINZ (the department of Work and Income New Zealand) are like the Spanish inquisition! During my last review the pen-pusher was constantly asking me when I'll be ready to start working, even though my doctor had stated "not in the foreseeable future." I don't like having to live off other people's taxes, but right now I don't really have a choice. I'd work if I could, but I can't.
Anyway, that's the latest in my life. I've been spending a lot of time in Auckland with drug_wench (we're back together now, and our relationship is stronger than ever since we've been off meth!), and returning to my home city for a couple of days each week for probation, appointments and medication pick-ups. My mood has been up and down a lot, but I guess that's to be expected when you're coming off two drugs at once!
