I know its never been easy

[mashead testing]

Your one of the only people
whos always been there
but you've hurt me so much
still I know you care
I know you've found it hard at times
ive found it hard to
but I cant help forget these memories
that are splitting me in two
Im hurting, your hurting
nothing, no solutions seems to be working
everyday we try,
everyday other day, we fail
I cant deny I love you
and I cant forget the past
theres nothing I can do
because its all so unclear
You hurt me and now I have no trust
everyone who enters me life gets rejected
everything I have ever done
has been tainted or affected
I love you but I cant carry on
this hurts me and I struggle to stay strong
I know you love me and find it hard
but im hurt and falling
I dont know whats for the best
for us to be together is hard
for us to be apart would never work
its not just me thats been hurt
I can see you've tried
but whats happened is still there
you know I love you and I know you care
what can we do
Sometimes I hope you hurt as much as me
but I try and forgive
and I try and forget
though its not easy

 

[E-girl]

this filled me with mixed emotion. you described something i went through, and i know how hard it was. i loved this guy sooo much, that it was hard to admit to myself what an asshole he was, and how wrong he was for me. and its almost a year later, and i'm with a wonderful guy who treats me like gold, but my thoughts often drift back to the memories... its hard not to. we shared so much. but that trust issue often creeps up to. i have no reason NOT to trust this new guy, yet i dont completely trust him, because i had my trust betrayed so many times in the past.

Im hurting, your hurting... just remember, 2 broken hearts dont make a whole one. sometimes, your heart can only heal when you make the conscious choice to fully let go.

 

[*Jamison*]

If this is about what I think it is....
*Hugs*
I love your words, and I hope things get better with that.
~Jamie

 

[someone]

reading this tonight made me think a lot, and I know there have been times in my life where I have been able to relate to every word you wrote... I think that most people at some point in thier life will be able to at least take something out of reading this and match it up to thier lives. It was really sad, but yet really good at the same time.
In a situation like that is all I can say is, fallow your heart.... eventually it will lead you to whats right for you thanks so much for sharing as always

I dont know whats for the best
for us to be together is hard
for us to be apart would never work
its not just me thats been hurt