I know I want too much

My bf spend the whole last weekend with me. Now he wants Friday to himself apparently. I know I should accept it. Men often need more time alone than women USUALLY. Hence, the invention of the garage. Right? I should be thankful for the time he does spend to me. I just wanna be a lil love dovely to make up for last weekend. Drive in head first and finally try to trust him not to hurt me. But yet I don't feel too encouraged. When I told hm that, he asked me where I got my weed. Which was a quote from my favorite movie, but it kinda hurt. I'm too sensitive.
I know it is PERFECTLY responsible that he would want to spend time relaxing or with his friends. I wish he would give me a second change not to make an ass out of myself in front of him female friends. As soon as they talk in I saw the wrong thing. But I want an opportunity to prove or at least try to prove myself... I also have have no friends and feel pretty isolated, being social would be nice.
But at least I know I'm too clingy so I'll leave him alone and let him plan what is going on. He has a tendency to withdraw now and then.
I guess I care class because I'm high. 'm just too damn sensitive.

BUT the the night,we went into two different room and watched the tv show we wanted. A year ago I wouldn't have been able to do that.
I want this to work for us. But I suck at relationships and
well I seem to destory everything that could possibly make me happy.
I guess I'm thoroughly depressed right now. Too much benzos I guess Who care.

 

What happened with his female friends?

 

Nothing. I just make an ass out of myself by saying something as soon as they walk in the room and or getting upset because one, usually most are, dressed with her boobs hanging out is getting a little too close for my liking.

 

Yeah but remember if he wanted to be with her, then he would be.. he is with you so it's not worth getting yourself upset over and also embarrassing yourself.