I found out that guy has a girlfriend tonight, they never broke up. I got on his case about it, and told him how much it hurt me? His response? To text me when I got home and rub it in my face. "We just had the best sex." "I hope you cant find love like me and her have one day." Tons of fucked up shit. HE hurt ME. Why did I deserve that?
I was a wreck, like that killed me. So I texted that other guy, J, the one I met in the military... my best friend, the one person who could put things into persepective and put me in check. He ignored me, of course.
So I texted P, the guy I was talking to before the douchebag in the first paragraph. Yeah, I broke ties with him, and at first he was like... yeah come over! But then he started ignoring me.
I have no one. People treat me like shit, no one cares that I'm dying inside right now. I just want to disappear. I have the most horrible, depressed feeling right now. It's honestly the worst emotional pain I've ever felt, just too many fucked up things in a row. I have no doubt that if there was a gun near me I'd use it.
I don't want sympathy. Or "things will get better"s. Empty words. I just wanted to vent. I don't care anymore, the fuck is the point of life...? To go through it, get hurt over and over, until you become an empty shell of a human. I want to die. I really do.
I was a wreck, like that killed me. So I texted that other guy, J, the one I met in the military... my best friend, the one person who could put things into persepective and put me in check. He ignored me, of course.
So I texted P, the guy I was talking to before the douchebag in the first paragraph. Yeah, I broke ties with him, and at first he was like... yeah come over! But then he started ignoring me.
I have no one. People treat me like shit, no one cares that I'm dying inside right now. I just want to disappear. I have the most horrible, depressed feeling right now. It's honestly the worst emotional pain I've ever felt, just too many fucked up things in a row. I have no doubt that if there was a gun near me I'd use it.
I don't want sympathy. Or "things will get better"s. Empty words. I just wanted to vent. I don't care anymore, the fuck is the point of life...? To go through it, get hurt over and over, until you become an empty shell of a human. I want to die. I really do.