I just want to die and I can't help it.

[tommy34]

tommy, you should check out the

Other than that, have you ever told a doctor or your parents about the suicidal thoughts you've been having? Have you ever had any counselling or anything like that?

I told a doctor an he referred me to a Psychologist who I never saw. I had counseling for a little bit when I was very young (7 - 8). I haven't told my parent but my partner. I remember asking my mum when i was young, maybe 11 - 12, "What would a normal boy my age be like?". I've always had this thought that I was strange an there was something wrong with me. Now that I'm older its become obvious whats wrong an what needs to be done but I can't find the motivation/strength to do it.

 

[n3ophy7e]

I think you owe it to yourself to at least try the psychologist. You never know if it will help you until you actually go

 

[tommy34]

I think you owe it to yourself to at least try the psychologist. You never know if it will help you until you actually go

Thank you. Sometimes I just think maybe I'm not meant to be happy or healthy for some reason. I was born with a heart murmur, when I was immunized as a baby I had a sever reaction and almost died, I was diagnosed with Supraventricular tachycardia about 3 years ago. It has progressed to irregular symptoms an I don't know what can be done about it. I'm bi-polar and a bit anxious. I mean, I feel like I'm being pushed towards suicide by a higher power. I have summoned the strength to fight it for so long but if I don't get help then I will have run out of resources to fight it.

 

[n3ophy7e]

Yeah it does sound like you've had a bit of bad luck when it comes to medical issues. But seeing a psychologist is your choice, your fate is in your hands man. Working towards happiness after you've been depressed for so long is hard work, but it is so so worth it