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^I'd love to be in that place right now!!! The beautiful scenery is great for relaxation and just smelling the fresh air.
 
I relapsed again. Struggling to keep my thoughts out of the hopelessness and self-pity spiral. Wondering if I really even care enough to successfully get better? Scared of what will happen and what I won't accomplish if I don't make real changes. Afraid to ask for help.

Thank you for seeing my weak little reach for acknowledgment.
 
Hey toast<3 thats your addiction trying to make you feal awful, worthless, and that it hopeless.. don't trust your emotions.. they are just the strings it manipulates you by.. see how it works you will see through the illusion.. see the illusion and you wont get played.. it lies and manipulates.. see how it manipulates and you wont get played.. your amazing.. it loves to make us feel all bad because it drove us to hit ourselves in the head with a hammer.. then it turns around and says it we are so bad for hitting ourselves with a hammer that we need and deserve ti hit ourselves in the head with a hammer.. it lies and just tries to play us. It plays us through emotion.. think it all through and you will see it palys us. figure out how it works and learn to see it bullshit and you will be free.

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I feal so guilty and ashamed of myself for hitting myself in the head with a hammer that I need to and will use this to justify hitting myself in the head with a hammer8(


Typical addict thinking in early recovery, before we have figured out a way to heal and are getting hit with a whole bunch of guilt and shame. Throw that shit out the window.. its not just, does us no good, and is there to drive use. ;)



Your amazing and doing great.. don't listen to its shit!!!!<3<3<3
 
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iliketoast said:
I relapsed again. Struggling to keep my thoughts out of the hopelessness and self-pity spiral. Wondering if I really even care enough to successfully get better? Scared of what will happen and what I won't accomplish if I don't make real changes. Afraid to ask for help.

Thank you for seeing my weak little reach for acknowledgment.
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Relapse is discouraging and it is understandable to feel remorse and even anger at yourself. The trick is to let those feelings happen without shaming thoughts--- and then let them go. Treat yourself with kindness. Be encouraging, be brutally honest, have faith in yourself. You will be OK. You can do this. It is a battle for yourself--the substance, and the temporary relief it seduces you with, is just a habit. The habit addresses a need and it is important to fully understand the need. Then you can address the root and find peace. I am truly sorry that you feel discouraged.
 
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Starting to wonder how many more years until I'll be mentally/emotionally ready to date again. :(
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I know that you were hurt and you probably still scared to love and hurt again but hey, give it a shot man! You never know you might meet your soulmate the next time around.

If you are not ready for a serious relationship I don't think there's a problem which just hanging out or having dinner dates ;)

@NSA awesome pics as usual! I love the frog pic hehe
 
"Once there was this boy. He was awfully lonely. All he had to keep him company was this ghost shadow, it sucked up all his energy. But for some odd reason the boy enjoyed his company. Then this girl came along one day. She was quite and fragile. Strong minded and talented. She was something like magic. He was flabbergasted. She looked straight into his green eye's and said to him " I'm gonna save you from the company that misery loves." The end."
 
I just got back from the hostpitol, and I am in CPs. They took care of my son, and my siblings were sent to a relative, they said I have to stay in the rotation of foster care for more than six years before I can go to any family members.
 
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