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@ Ad Lib, I know what you mean about being a chick at your age I'm 25 and I have been battling narcs since I was around 16.
 
Eveleivibe said:
How are you doing, ab? It's been awhile since we 've spoken. Are things better for you now?
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I've been good :) super busy with things but that should slow down for me soon.

gr33n3y3z said:
@ Ad Lib, I know what you mean about being a chick at your age I'm 25 and I have been battling narcs since I was around 16.
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It sucks so badly... I feel like it's a battle I won't ever win but I have to stay positive.
 
Do you ever come across someone that you think is a BL'ter (IRL)? And you just pounder if they are?
 
No. I don't think i could tell if someone IRL was a BL'er, but i can tell if they use drugs.

The only BL'er ive ever talked to IRL and not just online was TC.
 
HdoubleODeezy said:
No. I don't think i could tell if someone IRL was a BL'er, but i can tell if they use drugs.

The only BL'er ive ever talked to IRL and not just online was TC.
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Haha okay it was an odd question, but the other day this guy just gave me vibe that be was Bler. Yea I can tell is someone uses drugs but that wasn't the case lol. Ah well.

Tricomb?
 
I want to go outside but I can't decide whether to go or not. I'm also hungry but can't decide what to do with that.
 
plmar said:
I want to go outside but I can't decide whether to go or not. I'm also hungry but can't decide what to do with that.
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Hey plmar, I can confirm the lack of water falling from the skies, go out and marvel at the......dryness:D
 
neversickanymore said:
Blue cheese and pear garden salad, loaded bakers, and baby backs are on the menu tonight. Cant weight for summer and grilling season.
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I have yogurt and chicken sandwich for dinner. I can't wait for summer too and outdoor bbq lol
 
I couldn't wait. We had temperatures approach 70 degrees yesterday, and it still didn't melt all the ice around my place. But I opened up the ol' grill for the first time in 2014, and had some nice charcoal-grilled chicken. Afterwards the kids roasted marshmallows over it. lol
 
If you ever wanted to feel utterly insignificant, check this out.... Perspective is fun!

With so much emptiness, aren't stars, planets, and people just glitches in an otherwise elegant and uniform nothingness, like pieces of lint on a black sweater?

It seems like we are both pathetically insignificant, and miraculously important at the same time.
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"If the Moon Were Only 1 Pixel - A tediously accurate map of the solar system"

http://joshworth.com/dev/pixelspace/pixelspace_solarsystem.html
 
I fucked up. I got a little bit behind in my classes, and reacted like a typical addict. Instead of catching back up right away, I've spent the last two weeks not doing any of my assignments basically. Both my teachers are cool and accept late work, and if I get my ass in gear and hand everything in then continue to do well for the rest of the semester I can still pull off good grades. So I decided that I'm going to stay up all night tonight getting everything done before class in the morning. There's no way for me to knock it out and get some sleep, not even half of it. I either commit to staying up or I go to sleep as soon as I can and likely don't wake up for class anyway. So I think I'm gonna just stay up and try to get it all done. FUCK I'm stressed. I've had so much to deal with the last month. This has really been weighing on me, my homework. It's not even a ton of work, I've just been blowing it off everyday and letting the anxiety and stress around it build up just as quickly. So wish me luck... I hope that this time tomorrow I can go to sleep knowing I don't need to fucking worry about this shit anymore. :/
 
I'm really scared right now. I'm fucking losing it I don't know what to do.

I don't want to give too much away but things are so bad right now I have no idea what to do. I'm living with my parents and things are so bad financially I'm thinking of getting a job and giving them all the money just so that we don't get evicted or lose everything. We are dirt broke and instead of things getting better, it has never been this bad before. We're a family of five and have no food or gas money. We can't even afford to heat the house and we're neck deep in debt and fuck knows what.
I'm about to risk my freedom and do some illegal shit just so that we can survive because this is fucking pathetic and I'm shitting myself right now.
We're not a bunch of dopefiend junkies wasting money on smack either which makes it all the worse. No offense to anyone but I bet the most hardcore addict on here still has money to feed him/herself.
There is no way out of this and I'm about to go risk my freedom just so that we can survive. I don't think I've ever gone to sleep on an empty stomach every night before. The fridge is empty and nothing is paid for, bills, car insurance, nothing.

I'm fucking pissed off at myself too. No qualifications or any skills of any kind. I have the intention but no determination or drive to help us get out of this shit and I've squandered many opportunities.

Has anyone been in this position before? I need legit help because no idea comes to mind. Even if I worked the average $10/hour 9-5 it wouldn't be nowhere near enough.
I'm thinking of finding work and moving out but that would be selfish and my family (especially my mom) doesn't deserve that.
 
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