I just keep fucking up

I have real problems with going to class. I've missed so much class over the past 2 weeks it's pathetic.

And its not like I'm waking up, and then saying "nah I don't feel like going today." I always have my alarm set. The problem is sleeping.

I've had sleeping trouble for years now. And I went to the doctor over the christmas break, explained it to him, along with 2 other problems (ADHD and anxiety). The sleeping problem was the one giving me the most trouble.

Yet he gave me concerta & xanax. Nothing for sleep. Well the concerta fucked me over good, and the xanax was alright other than being too short to cover my anxiety for the day.

Now my sleeping problems have just become worse. Its like, I fall asleep whenever my body feels like it. I could go to bed at 1am, and lay there until 5, 6, 7am until I finally knock out. And then waking up at 10am or 11am for school is out of the question. I just can't get ready. I drag myself out of bed, only to reach my alarm clock to turn it off, and then just fall back into bed - exhausted. Then I wake up at like 1 - 3pm. Missing like all my classes.

I feel terrible about it, especially classes with group work. But fuck man, it's not like I'm purposely doing this. My dad would say "who cares if you're tired," but even then man, if I went to class I'd be so zombied out it's pointless for me to even go. I'm learning the same amount as I would learn if I just stayed in bed - which is nothing.

Fuck fuck FUCK. Thank god I FINALLY see my doctor next week...after going through 6 weeks of this bullshit again and again. I feel as if this is all my fault and I should be doing something about it..but even if I shut off everything at 11pm to try to go to sleep, I still won't get to sleep until 4am, and the cycle continues.

 

Sounds like your sleep patterns are out of whack. For whatever reason, your body has become used to sleeping during the day rather than night. Are you taking any drugs that may be contributing to this? When you see your doc next week, ask for some sleeping pills - maybe zopiclone or zolpidem (Ambien) for a short time, just to re-adjust your sleep patterns. You shouldn't need to be on them long-term. Just long enough to make yourself sleepy at night instead of during the day.

 

as a fellow sufferer of ADHD I can tell u wat caused the insomnia - and the anxiety - in the first place
ADHD
if u found The Right Drug for ur ADHD straight off, count ur blessings! I went thru evry drug in the book till the shrink scripted me dexamphetamine...then my anxiety went away, my depression went away, my insomnia ceased and I cud think straight and sit still
trouble is ur doc hasnt bn doing his homework and hes made it possibly worse by adding a benzo

if ur body doesnt depend on xanax I suggest u dont take it anymore - it does shit-all for u anyway right?
I'm weaning off diazepam which used to make me sleep like a baby till I got dependent
if ur dependent on alprazolam, u nd help first converting it to diazepam, then wean off
its incredibly rare that anyone nds daily benzos
frankly u sound like me - already insomniac wiv ADHD, then fucked over by a benzo-happy doctor who doesnt even realise that anxiety is a symptom of ADHD!
then if u develop rebound wds from the xanax the anxiety and insomnia worsen too

zopiclone/zolpidem hav a cross-tolerance with benzos
u didnt say how often u use the xanax but if its daily those will do shit-all

uthawise if the xanax is an emergency pill, accept it wont help ur kinda anxiety
ur anxiety is caused by a zillion munted thoughts crowding ur head at once - many, worries, right?
thats ADHD anxiety
if ur taking concerta and ur still like that, firstly I suggest u go to a doc who doesnt separate ADHD from anxiety (many ppl wiv ADHD r depressed too, due to not only a dopamine imbalance but yrs of alienation and put-downs) and is looking at the whole picture, rather than cutting symptoms of one disorder into three
methylphenidate wasnt an option for me cos while it helped, it made me itchy; I had ugly welts all over me
my psych was perfect cos he specialises in ADHD - aim to find a psych who at least knows that ADHD and benzos arent a gd mix (ADHD also causes addictive behaviour, hence why many drug addicts r ADHD...we r also prone to depression...something benzos worsen - not a drug for someone wiv ADHD!)
now I found the best med for me by fluke - the psych asked me why I used meth and I looked at him like he was an idiot and said 'its always taken my anxiety away'
I was off P at that stage and doc realised my system coped wiv amphetamines better than anything else
of course I'm back on the pipe again but such is P

take wat I advise as u like but I promise benzos worsen insomnia and anxiety in the long run
who knows, if u take xanax daily, my bet is no one will know wat concertas doing for u

I can only speak from experience that benzo addiction worsened my ADHD symptoms

its weird how most psychs think ADHD is merely hyperactivity and inability to concentrate - I suggest a book called 'So I'm not Lazy, Stupid or Crazy!?' (dont remember the author but its well-known, will b in the psychology section); u will b amazed how many times u read things shrinks never talk about, laugh and think omg I'm like that!

basically to sum it up, ull never know wat ur potential is - and ur insomnia can only get worse - while ur on xanax

ur story so equals mine its amazing - and sad - cos I'd give anything to just b free from benzos, but I hav 2yrs of weaning off diazepam left to go
one reason I relapsed on heroin and meth