I just don't know whether I should sign...

I just noticed your thread is on TDS. Perhaps you'd have more responses if it was moved to another sub-forum where they discuss pain management like Healthy living or Other Drugs or even in the careers sub-forums.

You're not alone, ok? And pleased don't be forced to do something you're not sure of or wanting?

You need some support I'm here for you as a fellow member, but not sure of anything in this area.

Mods? What's best to do please?

Evey
 
well theres a chronic pain megathread in tds

the OP main topic seems to be related to legal discussion.

i dont rly know what you can do when your job gives you less hours, i think centrelink will be able to help with medical bills, there must be someone who can give you a ride Lil Snickette? or have you called? i usually get there as they open so that i don't have to wait around for hours.

i hope you get through this flare up ok.
 
well theres a chronic pain megathread in tds

the OP main topic seems to be related to legal discussion.

i dont rly know what you can do when your job gives you less hours, i think centrelink will be able to help with medical bills, there must be someone who can give you a ride Lil Snickette? or have you called? i usually get there as they open so that i don't have to wait around for hours.

i hope you get through this flare up ok.

There's no one. I have nothing unless I pay for it
 
sometimes when i feel like i'm in panic mode, i sit down and close my eyes, slowly relax the tensions in my body (shoulders/eyes/jaw/mouth/eyebrows) and feel what sensations are coming up in my body, and just feel what is arising without any kind of judgement towards them, with a kind of curiosity. if it is a throbbing in my belly which is something i get if i am feeling very anxious, i'll breathe into it and just take notice of all of the sensations that are present. keep coming back to what the felt sense is, rather than the story that is playing in my head.

i'll get caught up in thoughts and beliefs, but really i think our natural state is of peace, but we forget it when we listen to our thoughts and go running with them. but to interrupt that process even for a second, can help to de-escalate the sense of fear.
 
I am so lost... & I hate my ms so much becos it makes me 'feel' things

I wish I didn't exist... Wow typing that made the tears stop.

On that topic, it's worth saying that your reaction is perfectly normal. Being lost is not comfortable, but at least you know you're in the tunnel, now just need to find the light. ;) the same can be said to "feeling" things. Scary shit, but I would suggest this; most people don't feel shit, and either lead a boring life, or continuously try and "feel" more!

Also, if you didn't existed, this world would be a much more sad place, know that for a FACT!

I'm sorry to be so negative

In French we have a saying that essentially says "any problem or challenge, once acknowledged, is halfway from being solved". You have the presence of mind of being here, asking around, you have the ability to think and do something about your situation. I don't see anything negative about that!

I need to destress & be positive... I can't... I just can't snap myself out of it

Oh yes, you can! May seems impossible, but the FACT is, you can!



Despite my admittedly limited knowledge of MS, I did spend a good chunk of my life with someone with Type 1 Diabetes (arguably, not the same, and perhaps a little more manageable also) but she would go through phases not dissimilar to yours, with emotions, anger, feelings coming out of everywhere and I quickly learned there's no reason to try and "control" it. Sometimes shit happens/comes out and the only way is forward! When it got really really bad, (and hopefully I'm not going to get in trouble for saying this;) she'd take some mersyndol or phenergan (not both!) and sleep for like 12 hours - not suggesting you take those here, but they are available over the counter and CAN cause dependance (given you sleep so well!).

Also, with regards to the paperwork, I agree, have a lawyer review it. If you still haven't signed it, and can't get to a laywer for any reason, try blanking bits out and "crowdsourcing" it (post it here, and some opinions will come out) to at least guide you a little towards "it doesn't look to bad" or "this is awful".

Hope this helps in anyway. One thing that's for sure, take care of yourself and worry about work after.
 
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I had to sign because they said I'd be fired otherwise.

Someone is talking to me @ Centrelink... This always happens to me. Waiting until someone is ready to speak with me
 
sometimes when i feel like i'm in panic mode, i sit down and close my eyes, slowly relax the tensions in my body (shoulders/eyes/jaw/mouth/eyebrows) and feel what sensations are coming up in my body, and just feel what is arising without any kind of judgement towards them, with a kind of curiosity. if it is a throbbing in my belly which is something i get if i am feeling very anxious, i'll breathe into it and just take notice of all of the sensations that are present. keep coming back to what the felt sense is, rather than the story that is playing in my head.

i'll get caught up in thoughts and beliefs, but really i think our natural state is of peace, but we forget it when we listen to our thoughts and go running with them. but to interrupt that process even for a second, can help to escalate the sense of fear.

This is something I used to do but 'tone' with spms (i.e. spasticity) you basically lose that function. Everything is always 'tight' & it won't relax. Sometimes it does, mostly not though... & OMG it is so painful ??

I'm going to continue to work as much as I am able - they said to me that as I improve other details will be added
 
On that topic, it's worth saying that your reaction is perfectly normal. Being lost is not comfortable, but at least you know you're in the tunnel, now just need to find the light. ;) the same can be said to "feeling" things. Scary shit, but I would suggest this; most people don't feel shit, and either lead a boring life, or continuously try and "feel" more!

Also, if you didn't existed, this world would be a much more sad place, know that for a FACT!



In French we have a saying that essentially says "any problem or challenge, once acknowledged, is halfway from being solved". You have the presence of mind of being here, asking around, you have the ability to think and do something about your situation. I don't see anything negative about that!



Oh yes, you can! May seems impossible, but the FACT is, you can!



Despite my admittedly limited knowledge of MS, I did spend a good chunk of my life with someone with Type 1 Diabetes (arguably, not the same, and perhaps a little more manageable also) but she would go through phases not dissimilar to yours, with emotions, anger, feelings coming out of everywhere and I quickly learned there's no reason to try and "control" it. Sometimes shit happens/comes out and the only way is forward! When it got really really bad, (and hopefully I'm not going to get in trouble for saying this;) she'd take some mersyndol or phenergan (not both!) and sleep for like 12 hours - not suggesting you take those here, but they are available over the counter and CAN cause dependance (given you sleep so well!).

Also, with regards to the paperwork, I agree, have a lawyer review it. If you still haven't signed it, and can't get to a laywer for any reason, try blanking bits out and "crowdsourcing" it (post it here, and some opinions will come out) to at least guide you a little towards "it doesn't look to bad" or "this is awful".

Hope this helps in anyway. One thing that's for sure, take care of yourself and worry about work after.

Thank you Cookie Monster! (?) You are so wise ?

I know I have the strength to overcome this... It's just in short supply I guess

I have always been an active person & to have such limited range of movement has been insane to deal with.

Well I only have 2, 5hour shifts this week as I another doctor appointment on Monday ?

I am over doctors & rehab clinics... Give me drugs that works ass-faced PoCs!

Interesting fact though - when I took gas/speed or even ice, my ms kinda went away... Shame my dealer did too
 
Sorry to hear you have MS, my Dad has MS and I know how debilitating it can be. Hope all is well with you in the future.
 
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