Bomb319
Bluelighter
It's not like I'm fat or anything either, but man oh man...IV can be an absolute nightmare. I know what I'm doing, very well. I just can NOT for the life of me get a new vein. Honestly, I usually consider a partial hit to be a victory because more often and not, the whole shot ends up as a painful bubble under my skin. The veins I have that I can see, I have to pull the needle within 1/1000 of a millimetre from being out, just to see blood feebly trickle in as one drop, only to disappear when I retest. No matter how slowly I inject, I immediately get that painful burn of a miss, or blow the whole damn thing. There are veins on me that FEEL large and springy so you would think no problem, right? Once I get in there, try to register and....nothing at all. Usually hurts like hell too. Then of course when I pull it out, that's when a river of crimson dark blood goes cascading out of there and staining everything.
The only way I've managed to keep this up is every once in awhile, after an hour of turning myself into a pin cushion, I happen to hit one that's lucky and just the right spot to get it all in no trouble. If I can remember the exact angle, that vein becomes old faithful for days to weeks, until inevitably I miss a tiny bit making the next hit easier to miss until a full blown miss fucks it up for good as well.
Hell, even when I was in the freaking hospital, I had to get THREE nurses to put my IV in. They have a rule where if they miss twice, they have to switch. And these were hand and forearm veins I had NOT previously abused or collapsed. I just don't get it. Sometimes brand-new gear is actually worse since it seems easier to slip out while injecting and miss. Sometimes the old and used ones have enough penetration power to get in there without hurting too much, yet not moving out.
I suppose that in the long run, this is a good thing of course. The only reason I even bother with it is because I know that any other method of ingestion will not take away my W/D or at least not to the point where I would waste my money on it. Next time you're shooting, think how "lucky" you are that you don't need a tableful of tried and bent rigs, towels of blood and completely wasted shots to get your fix. I would WELCOME methadone gladly if I weren't scared of how bad I hear the w/d is.
The only way I've managed to keep this up is every once in awhile, after an hour of turning myself into a pin cushion, I happen to hit one that's lucky and just the right spot to get it all in no trouble. If I can remember the exact angle, that vein becomes old faithful for days to weeks, until inevitably I miss a tiny bit making the next hit easier to miss until a full blown miss fucks it up for good as well.
Hell, even when I was in the freaking hospital, I had to get THREE nurses to put my IV in. They have a rule where if they miss twice, they have to switch. And these were hand and forearm veins I had NOT previously abused or collapsed. I just don't get it. Sometimes brand-new gear is actually worse since it seems easier to slip out while injecting and miss. Sometimes the old and used ones have enough penetration power to get in there without hurting too much, yet not moving out.
I suppose that in the long run, this is a good thing of course. The only reason I even bother with it is because I know that any other method of ingestion will not take away my W/D or at least not to the point where I would waste my money on it. Next time you're shooting, think how "lucky" you are that you don't need a tableful of tried and bent rigs, towels of blood and completely wasted shots to get your fix. I would WELCOME methadone gladly if I weren't scared of how bad I hear the w/d is.