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SInce getting off methadone. It seems like my epilepsy has came back after about 6 months off. It totally could have nothing to do with me quitting methadone since I usually had a seizure every 6 months anyway. The ones I have had letely are different from the ones i started with about 7 years ago. I used to only have grand mauls. Three months ago I had started haveing petit mauls every other night. I did not quite black out but hit the floor and seized. It really sucks bad and hurts physicaly a lot. It happend 20 times one month. I went back to the hospital and since iv been on every damn seizure medication other than benzos since i had a history of being on methaodne. I was never treated nicely or fair in the hospital. The month after i had the seizures I had another 2 then I could not handle it anymore and I went to the hospital. I am in Canada so its free( but in a way it still sucks becasue it takes 6-16 hours to get in to see a dr at the Greater Sudbury Hospital;iI live about 4 hours North of Toronto) I ended up seeing a dr who looked at my past and all the different drugs that ddint work but it did say they had some success with Ativan(Lorazepam) so my neurologist deicded to prescribe me clonazepam. My dosage was 4 .5s a day so in the end 2mgs prescribed in a manner of 2 .5's in the morning and 2 .5's after supper. I didn't abuse the medicine at all and it was the best I have ever taken. My seizures stopped in 3 days. Only 2 small one the first and second day. Then none at all. Well since I still had my old methadone dr as one of the drs to send my info too( I do not understand why havnt been there years and i told them to take it off but they "forgot" ). My former methadone dr recived it and he is honestly not being biast the biggest asshole in the world. No joke. He was just on the news and being sued for not dropping patients and having much much more than is a lound.( since the Government pays him hundreds of dollars a month for each patient and we still have to pay 160 a month for the methadone unless you are on social assistance or have coverage with you're job..many don not ) Also he was not meeting his patients enough in person. He was always on the computer screen 5 hours away. Sitting there watching soccer half the time. lol Yay 1 goal per game so fun , " and ties you bet" jk around. This man actually had the nerve to call my nerologist who prescribed me the clonazepam and just talk complete shit about me, saying im way to much of a liability wiht my past addiction. Even though my neurogist already knew about the past addiction because I told her the methadone dr just had to call any and freak out about me. I still have an appointment but I bet I woint get the only med that fucking worked. I was actually able to go out and hand out resumes on it and be normal. No seizures anymore and I never abused it. Never took extra, never sold any. Makes me so mad that ill prolly lose the only drug that has worked for me. Fucking asshole methaodne dr im not even on it anymore.PLus i was clean for 3 years on his program and had all my carries for 3 years so why would he call and say im a liability? Just because he is a pure asshole. I hope my dr prescribes me clonazepam again honestly it really worked and I never abused it so fuck i deserve to have the only med thats worked. I kow my neurologist is going to give into the methadone dr and prescribe me something iv already had and try and trick me and say the breand name or drug name and ill say iv already tried it didnt work check my records, but I bet the Neurologist will prescribe it anywway. WHy cant life be fair. That methadone dr hasnt been my dr for months he has no right to call my neurologist and talk shit about me like that. My methadone dr was sucha fucking asshole. Took me 12 months to get 3 carries i wason 5 years. Took 2 years to get 6 when at least it should take 7 because the first one takes 2 montsh of being clean. ANyway I rambled so much if someone actually read all this thanks for reading I hope no one else has to experience something unfair like that.
 
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Holy fuck I wish I could go back in time. In 2013 I had so much money saved up and was clean. I relapsed and ruined my life. Lost everything in a robbery. I've been clean for years now but I relapsed around 2016 hard and spent my entire savings. Plus I had the most sweet caring nice and hottest gf I've ever had. Plus my 2 est friends and brother would still be alive.........fuck I wish I had a time machine fuck 2013 I'd go back to the year 2000 and never try opioids/opiates and benzos.
 
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Marionette on a string to the bamboo thing
Macro in the Forrest Microsoft in da streets
Keep it BK38 cuz you know that I’m sweet

.38 special, but more like a drum mag
Swag with no money and still get the honey
Get to fucking all night energize me, bunny
Had some close shaves and dodged me some knives
The scars tell the story cuz I’m down to ride

Riptide

Whip when I need it but I’m lookin for cream
Holes in my pants, a dollar - dream. Shoe boxes of guap
Rubber bands and hip hop beats
All I really need is some shoes on my feet

Never

Accept when fallin but always stand tall - Taliban burka stall
Keep it shifty and best keep your gears in check si
Sour and sweet and get up like John Wick
Burning a candle both ends so you know it smell thick
Say less move more cuz you know that I’m slick

Stick

Incense in your holster, bic in your hand
Better pray you ain’t prey to them ghost busters man
Spooky vibes in the trap, watch your back
Lay you down in Chiraq. 36 chambers and all of em filled
Shout out to the Wu up in NYC
Time to peace out and smoke the tree.

Whip when I need it but I’m lookin for cream
Holes in my pants, a dollar - dream. Shoe boxes of guap
Rubber bands and hip hop beats
All I really need is some shoes on my feet.

RIP Mac Miller, the Nikes on my feet keep my cypher
Died too young but the one in front of the gun live forever.
 
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drunken_etard said:
SInce getting off methadone. It seems like my epilepsy has came back after about 6 months off. It totally could have nothing to do with me quitting methadone since I usually had a seizure every 6 months anyway. The ones I have had letely are different from the ones i started with about 7 years ago. I used to only have grand mauls. Three months ago I had started haveing petit mauls every other night. I did not quite black out but hit the floor and seized. It really sucks bad and hurts physicaly a lot. It happend 20 times one month. I went back to the hospital and since iv been on every damn seizure medication other than benzos since i had a history of being on methaodne. I was never treated nicely or fair in the hospital. The month after i had the seizures I had another 2 then I could not handle it anymore and I went to the hospital. I am in Canada so its free( but in a way it still sucks becasue it takes 6-16 hours to get in to see a dr at the Greater Sudbury Hospital;iI live about 4 hours North of Toronto) I ended up seeing a dr who looked at my past and all the different drugs that ddint work but it did say they had some success with Ativan(Lorazepam) so my neurologist deicded to prescribe me clonazepam. My dosage was 4 .5s a day so in the end 2mgs prescribed in a manner of 2 .5's in the morning and 2 .5's after supper. I didn't abuse the medicine at all and it was the best I have ever taken. My seizures stopped in 3 days. Only 2 small one the first and second day. Then none at all. Well since I still had my old methadone dr as one of the drs to send my info too( I do not understand why havnt been there years and i told them to take it off but they "forgot" ). My former methadone dr recived it and he is honestly not being biast the biggest asshole in the world. No joke. He was just on the news and being sued for not dropping patients and having much much more than is a lound.( since the Government pays him hundreds of dollars a month for each patient and we still have to pay 160 a month for the methadone unless you are on social assistance or have coverage with you're job..many don not ) Also he was not meeting his patients enough in person. He was always on the computer screen 5 hours away. Sitting there watching soccer half the time. lol Yay 1 goal per game so fun , " and ties you bet" jk around. This man actually had the nerve to call my nerologist who prescribed me the clonazepam and just talk complete shit about me, saying im way to much of a liability wiht my past addiction. Even though my neurogist already knew about the past addiction because I told her the methadone dr just had to call any and freak out about me. I still have an appointment but I bet I woint get the only med that fucking worked. I was actually able to go out and hand out resumes on it and be normal. No seizures anymore and I never abused it. Never took extra, never sold any. Makes me so mad that ill prolly lose the only drug that has worked for me. Fucking asshole methaodne dr im not even on it anymore.PLus i was clean for 3 years on his program and had all my carries for 3 years so why would he call and say im a liability? Just because he is a pure asshole. I hope my dr prescribes me clonazepam again honestly it really worked and I never abused it so fuck i deserve to have the only med thats worked. I kow my neurologist is going to give into the methadone dr and prescribe me something iv already had and try and trick me and say the breand name or drug name and ill say iv already tried it didnt work check my records, but I bet the Neurologist will prescribe it anywway. WHy cant life be fair. That methadone dr hasnt been my dr for months he has no right to call my neurologist and talk shit about me like that. My methadone dr was sucha fucking asshole. Took me 12 months to get 3 carries i wason 5 years. Took 2 years to get 6 when at least it should take 7 because the first one takes 2 montsh of being clean. ANyway I rambled so much if someone actually read all this thanks for reading I hope no one else has to experience something unfair like that.
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Because methadone also antagonizes Excitatory NMDA receptors (N-Methyl-D-Aspartate) receptors in addition to agonizing μ opiate receptors, it is one of the most likely opioids to cause ictal issues when stopping, especially if you are already prone to seizures. Taking an anticonvulsant med when coming off methadone and for a while after, is not a bad idea if you have previously had seizures, or if you are also coming off benzodiazepines. I recommend valproic acid (Depakote) levetiracetam (Keppra) or carbamazepine (Tegretol) if you do.

The NMDA type of glutamate receptor decreases excitatory input as Glutamate is the primary excitatory amino acid in the CNS. The putative reason that methadone is given once a day to stave off withdrawals and is given q4h —q6h when used for analgesia, and it activity at the NMDA receptor is also why it takes so much longer to come off of methadone.

A small amount of dextromethorphan (only dxm not the dxm with pseudoephedrine or phenylephrine, and guaifenesin) which comes in the time released brand called Del-Sym syrup or strips for buccal administration, in small doses (like 30 mg) may help with the akisthisia associated with methadone withdrawal [Don’t drink a half bottle of dxm or you’ll feel like you’re tripping and large dose are also know to cause Olney’s Lesions in the brain.]

—MD

PS: Whatever you do, make sure you wait at least 5-6 days of nothing before taking Subutex or Suboxone after you stop methadone. You need to be in real objective withdrawal to benefit from buprenorphine. For example, you need to have diarrhea, diuresis, sneezing, vomiting and muscle cramps. If you only have symptoms in your head, you will either go into precipitated withdrawals or if you make it to where you don’t feel any worse from the bupe, it will be ok. But if you can wait long enough to really have withdrawals, you will feel better immediately and it will make it a great deal easier.

—MD
 
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