I don't know anything about you but if you're not ready to kick methadone or opioids in general Suboxone could be a safety net. It is available and cheap almost anywhere so you might try to find some and taper. Going from 40 to 0 with methadone will be quite brutal. Especially if youv have any obligations in next month or so.
Im not a doctor and this is not a medical advice. Just an observation from being in a similar situation before.
Thank you , friend.
I took buprenorphine for 10 something years. In germany its a scheduled drug, and 8 mg go for 20 bucks. Unfortunately no one there, so in desperation I switched to methadone. You might know, there is no gooing back, easy. ( There is. But troubelling) So, I stayed on methadone, for me? That is the most disgusting opiate , like ever, to choose for MAT. I guess, the go out all the way, to prevent us from having euphorics. (!!!!)
Problem is, I am in the medical field. Applying for MAT is a death sentence for my job, because you are then registered user. Punishment never stops. So, see me gooing all in , everyday to fiend a fellow addict , who sellls his saliva in a pill. God I am angry.
( And, yessir. I am quite struggeling. Cold sweat, diarrhea , restless everything, stinking of sweat, puking....yada, yada. I feel , beeing punished to get to work, try to benefit to society. All I ever needed is a fraction of pennies worth of an opiate. And no. I never ever stole a painpill from my patients, but that is a grueling task. Let me tell you. Standing there , having 8mg of fentanyl , in hand, just to patch it onto someones skin. But, I liked the leftovers, shure. Can you imagine? I chewed a disgustingly stained an tainted patch , a used patch, just to fuel my addiction. And fentanyl wd's ? Always topnotch, never fails. ( Gos I am angry)
