I have no friends, no boyfriend and no prospect of finding either...

I can relate. I recently moved and left behind steady work/income and friends and everything I know. Now I hate where I live, I have no friends, no drugs, and I absolutely cannot stand the local people. I had good work but got layed off, and I haven't seen my family for a couple of years and I am not going to be able to make it home for Christmas again this year because I cannot afford it. I feel more down and depressed now than I have in a long long time. Maybe more so than ever.

All I can do is take it one day at a time, and I would suggest the same for you, Mia. Set some goals and work toward them. And try to remember to be grateful and appreciative of what you do have, rather than only focusing on what you don't have. I know it's hard, and my advice could not be more of a cliche, but that's all I can offer.

Hey, at least you're in California! I wish I hadn't left. Whatever you do, don't move to Montana.
 
I have been following your posts. As I said, I've been thinking about your situation, because it means something to me. I want to see you get better, and I will continue to follow your posts.

First, I want to congratulate you on your success so far. You may not see it that way, but you're getting your life back on track. You've got a job and you're making great money. You'll have enough to pay for college. You can get educated, get a good job and start settling down and find someone to love.

Don't you see how worse you could have ended up? You're going to college, for fuck's sake. You could have ended up on the street. Things could be a lot worse, but they're not. And that's because you've been strong. You made it this far, you can keep going.

Also, you've got a good job. 3000 bucks a week? That's pretty damn good. I'd rather strip and make 3000 a week than work as a cashier and make minimum wage.

Another thing. This man that you spoke about. If he is a good man (and please make sure that he is a good man, because he could be some kind of sicko) why not see if he'd like to go out with you? He's paying you 2500 bucks a week, why wouldn't he like you? Having someone there for you will make life that much easier.

I hope you get better.
 
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