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I have lost virginity to an escort.

I have heard that when you pay for sex with prostitutes that it gets addictive in a way, or it's something that most people do not really do just once?

People I know have paid for female prostitutes and they have done it more than once. Or some pay for sex with a few or the same prostitute every so often when they do not have a girlfriend and can't find a woman to hook up with. I have met some bisexual and gay men who are into paying for a male prostitute. This I do not understand since if you want casual sex or just to hook up it's not that difficult to find another bisexual or gay man who wants to do this either online or in a bar. But some of these men told me how they would pay to have sex with a bisexual or gay man that does porn; but if you do porn you make more money being a male or female prostitute on the side than you do from doing videos.

I personally have never and would not ever pay for a prostitute either a female or male one.

ZSSR-Since you seem to want a relationship with a woman meet women who are single and date them. It will take time.

Since you wrote about having anger/rage at least talk to someone about it like a close friend, counselor, therapist, or even just vent about it here online on bluelight in a forum for it.
 
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Yesterday some dude, Eliot Rodger to be exact, has killed 7 people because as he claims of rejection and loneliness. See, this does happen. I am no longer thinking of doing anything similar but if one is ignored by hearing "first world problems" from everyone, he actually makes his case first world problem, snaps and does it.

Once in a while we all require feeling of love and approval. If neither is experienced one begins to question his life and future.
"If it didn't happen for so long, it will never happen. - If there was never a girl who liked me even just a bit, how will I ever be loved."
In such cases we need someone to prove us otherwise. In this guy's case there was no one, or he didn't really want to beg for help his parents who didn't give a shit. All this could also apply to Anders Breivik.

Eliot Rodger's threat video on LiveLeak:
Six Dead in Isla Vista Shootings - Alleged Killers Video Threat


Now you might think he is stupid psychopath but as I said there was no one who could prove him things are different. No one he could look up to etc. He hasstuck to the idea he created in his head, I do not blame him for it. It just happens, we all do this in a way. I blame his parents.

Only 7 kills though? Poor count. Like with an ultimate shoot I would come up with something much bigger.
I will never do, though.

@PriestTheyCalledHim.

Prostitutes isn't something you do once and I agree. It becomes an addiction, you start to realise it's unhealthy and cost money, you no longer enjoy it that much yet you have to do it.
I don't know... I have signed a 12-month contract at one of the top gyms where my money will go instead for prostitutes.
 
I lost my virginity to a escort she was a hot 19 year old and I don't regret it one bit;)
It sucks being a virgin in today's society its like you are a big freak if you don't bang everyone in sight who is the opposite gender
 
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Did you really? Haha. Nice, man. Did someone set it up for you, or did you do it on your own, just saying eff it, tired of being a virgin time it's hooker time.

my best friend/drug dealer set it up I just had to pick the girl haha it was like god took every physical feature I am attracted to in a girl and made the perfect escort just for me to bang haha big boobies ,brunette, not too tall, nice ass, 19 years old , nice and tight pussy and ready to please:) who could ask for a better 19th birthday the first time allowed in the strip club or a bar has to be memorable. I went to the strip club drunk with my buddy's then went down the road 5 minutes to the escort agency for my appointment fucked a smoking hot 19 year old honey for an hour became a man then went back with my buddies drank some more did some oxys coke and watched my best buddy punch out a huge man/woman while walkin home at 3am haha its a long story that last part but basicly this manly looking tall ass women comes out of the shadows of an alley and says can u spare some change so my buddy being the pig he is said ill give you 20 bucks if you suck my dick. anyways sh didn't give good head so he punched her ran off and met back up with us before we ditched him in the cab for being an idiot I told him the next day how nuts he was he had no clue he even did such a thing haha
 
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I am a tall, quite okay looking guy. I have never met a women who even liked me for a short while.
My funky problems and mess in my mind exceed all limits. I am sick and tired of this bullshit life.
Well, I partially agree with you and I got your points. But, my friend tells me, is sex only way to solve all kinds of disputes. You, lost your virginity, it is not a big issue. The main issue is that you are doing the same thing many times. And, according to your point of view, if you are tall and good looking, then why girls are not approaching you because you don't want to understand any girl's feelings. So, don't be upset. Just try one more time in a different way. I assure you that you will get success in your life.
 
After some deep thinking I have finally accepted the fact that I've lost virginity to an escort, and that I have been using them. It was very important for me to get into the core of my issues, now it's been three months since I have last paid for sex and a good month without drinking any alcohol - which I do not want to go back to. I have signed myself to a top gym in town, I go there 5 days a week. Successfully finishing my college and I do not do any mistakes at my workplace anymore. Generally, I am happier.

However.
I am still lonely. When I go around the city and see all the beautiful women hanging out with guys of all looks, good and bad I can't understand why I am so left behind. I am just missing the female connection, talking to them, laughing... As much as I try to stay positive at one point I am still sad. It's pathetic, but I am just a human and not a robot... and this is when the never ending circle begins. It makes me want to use an escort again, not for the sake of sex, but for the sake of a female connection, really I'd want to hug a girl I like way more than to have sex with some random chick.

@GeorgeChristina. I do the same thing over and over again because for all these 7 years I never had an opportunity for a normal relationship and at one point I have finally lost it, lost my hopes and had no more perspective for how things could ever change.
How can you say though that I do not want to understand any girl's feelings? You have no basis to say that. I said many times before, that I am looking for emotional connection more than just for sex.
 
Broseph, get involved in community/group events.

-Sign up for www.meetup.com.
-Go to an art exhibit.
-Walk a dog, or someone else's dog, at the park.
-Spend a few nights at a hostel in your city (great place to meet travelers/foreign chicks).
-Volunteer somewhere (chicks will be there and they will be flattered that you did this only out of the "kindness of your heart")
-*Learn a new language* Chicks dig this.. especially if they are a native speaker. All you need to know are a basic few phrases and they will be overly amazed, impressed, and flattered when they hear you speak it.

Its best to do these things after smoking a joint so you'd be more relaxed and open. Just do it to explore new things and people. Being that women are people as well, you will become acquianted with them before you know it.
 
I am on meetup.com just have not used it for a while, need to go back to it and so I will. Finished with college so will have time now.
I am going to add, that after three months of holding back from escorts today was the day I couldn't resist yet it was a very critical decision, I was afraid of going into the "depressive" state again, but I didn't. Actually, I feel great, relieved, and my mind is clear. Once again I can focus on the good stuff, I guess if doing it less and less frequently it is not that bad. I don't struggle financially even as a student so that doesn't bother me. The girl was very pleasant and professional, now I am off to the gym.

@Waffle, yeah smoking some green always help me chill. When I don't study or do anything, once in a while I smoke a joint or three. Thanks a lot for the tips, appreciated.
 
Yeah that sick fuck (Elliot fucking Rodgers) killed one of my friends. This post makes me sick. There is so much more life to be lived, and if you are yourself, you will find genuine people to like you. Don't go and hurt innocent people because you are in pain. sorry if I lack empathy in this post or being nice, but considering we are mourning a loss over here because of something similar I just read, I tend not to be filled with sorry for you. The fact you said his count is weak, or whatever you wrote, is just insensitive. These people who died were minding their own business and didn't deserve that.
 
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