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I have finally joined! Been lurking this site for YEARS.

Painfully

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May 25, 2018
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Hello everyone. I want to thank the people who run this site and make this all possible. I?ve been using it for many years and never joined. I am mild addict. I mainly seek to help my anxiety and chronic pain which has been hard where I live. Recently had my xanax script yanked away so I?ve been dabbling in other things to try and get rid of it.

I?m a film student and it?s very possible I might pop in asking questions to help develop charaters or storylines for screenplays for student projects and such. I was an art student for a while but switched to film in the hopes of working on project-based jobs on movie sets.

Recently I?ve been watching Patrick Melrose. If you like Benedict Cumberbatch, especially his performances as high/drunk Sherlock Holmes, you?ll love the first episode. I find druggy characters to be quite comforting because I?m a lonely addict. No one knows I?m an addict really. I just carry myself well and people just can?t tell when I am high or drunk. When I was growing up (school age, especially middle school) people used to say I sounded stoned all the time. But I never touched drugs until after I graduated high school. I think my autism just makes me sound monotone or something. I just seem dazed and chill naturally. I think people would notice if I was on stimulants though. I have bipolar so my mania or stimulants are the only two things that will make me seem high to others.

Right now I am enjoying a good high, I haven?t felt this good in a while. I hope it lasts.

Anyways I guess I want some company so I have decided to join.

I am American and I am in my late 20?s and I really really love eating sweets. I also love video games. They help my chronic pain too. Hope to make friends, thanks for having me.
 
Hey Painfully, welcome to Bluelight.

I dabbled in set building when I was in high school and during my college days as well. It really helped me later on in life when I was called on to do design work. The concepts of forced perspective and story telling is a great skill. Right now I'm working on some projects in Unreal 4. You're definitely getting some great life skills there.

Anyway enjoy Bluelight, there are many communities here to get involved in.
 
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