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I have BAD BAD anxiety

zombiekiller

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I have a VERY bad case of anxiety and the doctor put me on 2mg Xanax. I talking my hands drip sweat and so do my feet I keep a knife in the shower it's bad I just don't know what is going on.....
 
The doctor prescribed you a whole 2mg of Xanax? Just like that, no titration? Wtf... are we still in the 90's? :?

If you think your anxiety is bad now, just wait until you get dependent on benzos after long-term (> 4 weeks) usage, lol... 8(

Benzos are short-term tools only, they end up making anxiety worse in the long run.
 
I struggle with bad anxiety as well, however long term benzo use makes the problem worse.. imagine the rebound anxiety during withdrawal, if you think it's bad now you haven't seen anything yet.

Benzos seem to be more of a temporary solution, with consequences. There are supplements and nutritional alternatives to these drugs, and I use them with great results.

B12 Sublingual 2,000 mcg + Lots of folic acid + 5mg / day lithium orotate has worked wonders for me, and I was able to kick benzos. My doctor is VERY good and this is his regimen for a lot of his chronically ill patients with bad anxiety. My wife has also kicked benzos on this regimen. No more withdrawing, tapering, titrating, I finally feel normal. EXERCISE.

Benzos are sort of a last option
 
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Well, if it's too scary to go outside, maybe get a treadmill? Set that thing on full blast and go go go until you can't anymore. Do that twice a day and I guarantee you'll get to feeling better before you know it.
 
^YES, exercise, man, exercise and diet.

We really "are what we eat," not the vegan nonsensical application of the phrase, but more that our neurotransmitters need the building blocks obtained from healthy foods to replenish properly. Without proper protein, good fats, and complex carbs, we have serious chemical imbalances, and are making natural imbalances from anxiety/depression/PTSD/ADD much worse.

If we eat like crap, we will feel like crap. If we eat heavy, fried foods, we will feel foggy and lethargic from the bad fats. If we eat lots of sugar, then we will feel full of crappy, unfocused energy that causes anxiety and depression when it wears off after 30 minutes.
 
The doctor prescribed you a whole 2mg of Xanax? Just like that, no titration? Wtf... are we still in the 90's? :?

If you think your anxiety is bad now, just wait until you get dependent on benzos after long-term (> 4 weeks) usage, lol... 8(

Benzos are short-term tools only, they end up making anxiety worse in the long run.

^ This. BTDT unfortunately..
 
just dont take ANYTHING a doctor prescribes you cus it will fuck you up worse than any drug has believe me.
 
just dont take ANYTHING a doctor prescribes you cus it will fuck you up worse than any drug has believe me.

LOL, ok buddy 8)

This is Bluelight, where we know what the fuck we put in our bodies. Drugs are drugs to us, just because a doctor gives them to us doesn't make them bad on the other hand, we must treat it like any other drug and know exactly how much we put in our bodies, how frequently we should dose, etc.

Too many people follow the instructions on their bottle to take (for example) 1mg Xanax three times daily, when all they really need is 0.25 with no benzo tolerance, as needed for anxious situations or panic attacks. Taking it all the time gets you dependent and raises your tolerance needlessly.

Please try to refrain from sweeping generalizations, they do no one any good on an objective, neutral Harm Reduction forum like BL.
 
LOL, ok buddy 8)

This is Bluelight, where we know what the fuck we put in our bodies. Drugs are drugs to us, just because a doctor gives them to us doesn't make them bad on the other hand, we must treat it like any other drug and know exactly how much we put in our bodies, how frequently we should dose, etc.

Too many people follow the instructions on their bottle to take (for example) 1mg Xanax three times daily, when all they really need is 0.25 with no benzo tolerance, as needed for anxious situations or panic attacks. Taking it all the time gets you dependent and raises your tolerance needlessly.

Please try to refrain from sweeping generalizations, they do no one any good on an objective, neutral Harm Reduction forum like BL.

This! Surely you can tell if it's too much? That you needed less than you were taking? When I was given morphine after my surgery I took half the dose I was prescribed because i didn't like how much it slowed me down. You don't HAVE to take the amount on the label unless it's anti-biotics.
 
Believe me exercise and healthy diet is not the 'cure all' for Anxiety in some of us.

I have one of the most healthy, balanced diets of anyone i know, i ride my bike 10 miles per day and have been for 8 years yet still suffered with crippling Anxiety & Depression.

This was before id discovered Benzos, so my symptoms were not Benzo related.

By all means a healthy diet and exercise is a good thing but it's not the magic bullet like 99% of people seem to suggest.

Btw im not trying to say long term Benzo use will not exacerbate your Anxiety, it probably will, just dont be too disappointed if the healthy diet/exercise regime doesnt work as well as many people make out.

Best of luck to you in trying to overcome your problems. :)
 
I only take it when we go ti walmart or a crowded place. Im also a borderline killer. those pills take all them thoughts away.
 
I have pretty bad anxiety and loads of intrusive crazy thoughts and to much benzos to oftens will just amplify all that i will feel very beligerant/depressed and violent, will also make me shaky coming off the benzos. It only takes me 3 to 6 2mg xanax in a span of 3 to 5 days to start feeling myself spiral out of control so I usually just stick with 1-2 2mg xanax per 2 to 3 weeks, I try to just stay away from them keep them as a rare treat, benzos are no joke with me its worse than heroin for me at times with the depression days or even weeks after the initial or last dose.

Xanax works just for a short period of time ime and tolerance builds very quickly ime iv ate em till they didnt work properly and it doesnt take long but thats me everyones different.

Moderation and lower doses are where its at really imo you wont have any problems and youll still get a nice easing buzz everytime you eat a reasonable benzo dose without much negative side effects.

Exercising helps alot, along with having a good balanced diet. Also I have weapons all over my house thats perfectly normal imo just remember they are there so you dont accidentally cut/shoot yourself. Also imo every living animal or poisnous plant is a killer its apart of nature, just have to know when the appropriate/ rational time to kill something is.
 
Anxiety is complex and although medications can help, they often only mask the problem. Yes, I do think they are appropriate sometimes, but I think a more multifactorial approach is best - therapy can work wonders, especially CBT, and although diet and exercise and doing positive, healthy things can seem weak compared to popping a pill, over time they really can make significant and lasting changes to your mentality..

I also very much agree that you want to be on the lowest dose, and take it as infrequently as you can - partly to avoid tolerance and dependence, but also because it could prevent you from ever tackling the root cause of this and actually helping you to sort out your anxiety rather than covering it up.

I'm going to leave this here as a discussion about Xanax is BDD material and a few posts here wouldn't fit in TDS (The Dark Side), but I really recommend you checking out that forum OP, especially the anxiety megathread (or of course feel free to start your own thread) - it covers mental health etc and is a really supportive place.

Good luck <3
 
@zombieKiller, glad to see the posting settled down a bit there, I'm not saying I think Benzos are a long term answer for you by any means but neither are they going to instantly turn you into an addict who will have to face down horrendous WDs. I've been stupid enough to use illicit Benzos in stupid quantities, in fact I'm on the back end of a taper now and this is not the first time, but of you did end up in trouble your doctor should switch you to a long acting Benzos like Diazepam and slowly reduce the dose over months, not fun but not the nightmare some describe.

You must never stop taking a drug from the Benzo group if you have been taking it regularly without consulting your doctor. I think that sometimes people mix up a properly planned and controlled Benzo taper and sudden cessation of the drug, so don;t let this add to you anxiety just now, try and keep the usage as low and irregular as possible, daily use is the road to trouble.

I noted you comments on feeling of wanting to kill others, I don't know what assessment you have had but, thoughts are just that, most people have fleeting thoughts of stabbing people when they are holding a big sharp knife, or driving into the central reservation when on the road. I'm guessing this is more about the anxiety these thoughts are giving you than them being abnormal. People just don't generally acknowledge these thoughts or talk about them but in the main they are harmless and not at abnormal.

Best Wishes
 
Sounds bad...
I didn't read all the replies, but IF you take the xanax.
Well first off 2mg will put someone with no tolerance to sleep.
Anyway if you take it when you get off it expect your anxiety to be worse, a LOT worse.
Try breathing techniques, they actually work.
Whenever you start freaking out take 10-15 deep breaths into your stomach, not chest.
Inhale and exhale slowly.
Also exercise will help
Good luck with anxiety
 
Try breathing techniques, they actually work.
Whenever you start freaking out take 10-15 deep breaths into your stomach, not chest.
Inhale and exhale slowly.

Agreed, taking deep breaths on the first sign of panic usually prevents them from progressing in to full blown panic attacks. Take deep breaths, and just get out of the house/indoor place that you're in, and go for a walk, since feeling boxed in with walls makes me feel less free in a panicked state.
 
yes deep breathing works alot when your starting to notice your getting stressed, i practice mindfulness and just zone out and try to put all the things stressing me out in the back seat of my mind.

the intrusive thoughts are pretty normal from what i have gathered, i have them all the time there not reality though and just because you have those thoughts doesnt mean your going to do them. i have also read if your feeling guility or emotional from these unwanted or intrusive thoughts then your actually less likely to act out on them. was very interesting it got me into researching the different parts on your mind and you can actually learn whats responsible for certain types of thoughts and actions.

sorry if i miss spelled anything im enjoying some methadone at the moment.
 
Believe me exercise and healthy diet is not the 'cure all' for Anxiety in some of us.

I have one of the most healthy, balanced diets of anyone i know, i ride my bike 10 miles per day and have been for 8 years yet still suffered with crippling Anxiety & Depression.

This was before id discovered Benzos, so my symptoms were not Benzo related.

By all means a healthy diet and exercise is a good thing but it's not the magic bullet like 99% of people seem to suggest.

Btw im not trying to say long term Benzo use will not exacerbate your Anxiety, it probably will, just dont be too disappointed if the healthy diet/exercise regime doesnt work as well as many people make out.

Best of luck to you in trying to overcome your problems. :)

Youre 100% right. Its not always the cure all. BUT, considering it is such a integral part of your healthy living, as well as a POSSIBLE cure, why not give it a shot before you drug yourself up 24/7? Worst thing that happens is youre now healthier with crippling anxiety. best thing is youre better.

Best to try something that doesn't involve shoving an additional substance in your body first. Although petes right, doesnt' help everyone. But who knows, maybe you are one of those people? Best to try the natural solutions before the unnatural ones.

Although most people are lazy and would rather just eat a pill instead of improving their lives. Hence why the drug industry does so well, lazy people!
 
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