I have a voice in my head that tells me to do naughty things...

Dr.DOB

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Like i was at my sisters birthday party and i was cutting the cake and i was just staring at the big shiny knife slicing through the spongy chocolatey celebratory desert. Then I hear the familiar command in originating from my head to KILL MY SISTER. This voice always sounds the same, as if the voice is a real entity. The voice has this really aweinspiring aura to it, the vibes I get from the suggestions the voice makes to me seem as though this entity is trying to show me something, something that would shift the worlds paradigm.

This voice has never lead me astray. Sometimes it tells me to do wild things that may seem irrational to me at the time, but always turn out preferable in the end. For example I was going to go pick up a sack of 5-meo-dalt and i called my dealer and he said come over. I was smokin a bowl bout to head out and the voice told me to continue smoking and never show up. I never question the voice though and I do as it says because for some reason it always knows the whats best for me. The next day after not even contacting him to tell him im not coming i find out he gets busted at the same time i was bout to go over there!!!!

For this and many other reasons I no the voice has some reason for telling me to do something I would never to. So I dont even think twice to not kill my sister because i am totally confident there is some good reason for it, possibly because later in life she will become a murderer and i have to save her future victims or something. So in the middle of the party i go and am about to fucking kill her, my whole family has no idea what is about to go down but im certain it will turn out good.

So im walking over to her with the knife in my hand and by the time i get half way between her and I the dog starts barking like mad at the door, apparently the mailman is here exactly at the time i was bout to fucking murder my sis! So i decide to wait until the mailman leaves to do my bidding. But then I realize the package was for my sisters birthday and it was a huge box that needed to be cut open and I had a knife in my hand that I just wiped the cake off of. Then I realized that's what the voice was intending for me to do the whole time, was to be the hero with the knife to open the present for her.

The voice later tells me when we are alone that, that was a test to see if I trusted the voice enough to allow the voice to divulge me with all its secrets of the universe. Then I told other people about how this voice knows everything and that my offspring will bring forth new nations and anybody could live in our glory if they just simply make a covenant by sacrificing what is dearest to them, their foreskin.
 
this is what some call a psychotic break goto a psych ward and explain your inner monologue so that way you can not brutally murder some one

or if you wont do that explain to your family about the goals you want and the mindset you feel will be needed to achieve also explain to them the circumstance that caused you to trust this voice

ps i dont know about you but my foreskin was taken right after i was born and MOST women never had a foreskin
 
I would hope this is a joke but this is probably one of the weirdest/most fucked up posts I have read on this site, or anywhere else for that matter. I would hope you seek help but I'm not sure you actually see a problem. Maybe you do, though? Since you are posting in the forum, possibly seeking opinions on this? Hope you figure things out.

Tomer
 
OP you're voice sounds kinda useful my voice just tells me to do useless shit like go to the bathroom when I don't have to or walk around my apartment for no reason.

No shit though sounds like you are having a psychotic break, how long have you had this voice for? I would go to the psychiatric unit brother.

ps i dont know about you but my foreskin was taken right after i was born and MOST women never had a foreskin

I don't know about where OP lives but here in Australia hardly anyone is circumcized, I was gonna be but then right before I was born my mom saw a documentary about how it's bad for the babies or somethin' and I never got it.
 
Dr DOB, what you have described is a pretty serious symptom and you need to get it checked out with a psychiatrist as soon as possible.

How long has this been going on for? What drugs are you using/have you used or abused in the past?
 
n3o is right. DOB, you have to get evaluated by a psychologist. You can get on a suitable anti-psychotic medicine and/or therapy that can help eliminate the very dangerous thoughts you are having. This is a serious life or death decision. You do not want to have a psychotic episode and kill or harm someone.

For your safety and the safety of others, check yourself into a psychiatric hospital immediately.
 
I'm somewhat concerned over your lack of mention toward your personal feelings about murdering your sister, and your failure to anticipate how this would be received on a public forum.

To me, that demonstrates either a pathological lack of empathy, or a ploy for attention using shock value.
 
I get the odd voice that pops up and at its worst it told me to commit suicide. Then I took a long break from drinking / gambling / smoking cigarettes and upon starting to drink again, now about a month in - the odd disturbing voice is back, thanks to the alcohol. It might not just be that but it could be from the things you watch, the things you read, the things you experience. I believe this is why one should only concern themselves with a positive environment rather then a negative one, although this is easier said then done.
 
Honestly i think the best thing you could do would be to go see a psychiatrist or some other mental health professional now. What you described are classical symptoms of a severe mental illness. What drugs if any do you regularly take besides weed? That can play a big part as well.
 
Like i was at my sisters birthday party and i was cutting the cake and i was just staring at the big shiny knife slicing through the spongy chocolatey celebratory desert. Then I hear the familiar command in originating from my head to KILL MY SISTER. This voice always sounds the same, as if the voice is a real entity. The voice has this really aweinspiring aura to it, the vibes I get from the suggestions the voice makes to me seem as though this entity is trying to show me something, something that would shift the worlds paradigm.

This voice has never lead me astray. Sometimes it tells me to do wild things that may seem irrational to me at the time, but always turn out preferable in the end. For example I was going to go pick up a sack of 5-meo-dalt and i called my dealer and he said come over. I was smokin a bowl bout to head out and the voice told me to continue smoking and never show up. I never question the voice though and I do as it says because for some reason it always knows the whats best for me. The next day after not even contacting him to tell him im not coming i find out he gets busted at the same time i was bout to go over there!!!!

For this and many other reasons I no the voice has some reason for telling me to do something I would never to. So I dont even think twice to not kill my sister because i am totally confident there is some good reason for it, possibly because later in life she will become a murderer and i have to save her future victims or something. So in the middle of the party i go and am about to fucking kill her, my whole family has no idea what is about to go down but im certain it will turn out good.

So im walking over to her with the knife in my hand and by the time i get half way between her and I the dog starts barking like mad at the door, apparently the mailman is here exactly at the time i was bout to fucking murder my sis! So i decide to wait until the mailman leaves to do my bidding. But then I realize the package was for my sisters birthday and it was a huge box that needed to be cut open and I had a knife in my hand that I just wiped the cake off of. Then I realized that's what the voice was intending for me to do the whole time, was to be the hero with the knife to open the present for her.

The voice later tells me when we are alone that, that was a test to see if I trusted the voice enough to allow the voice to divulge me with all its secrets of the universe. Then I told other people about how this voice knows everything and that my offspring will bring forth new nations and anybody could live in our glory if they just simply make a covenant by sacrificing what is dearest to them, their foreskin.

Okay buddy one of two things:
If you do wanna listen to it, don't listen to it all the time, especially about killing your sister. Please don't do anything drastic. This sounded like you were justifying carrying the knife.

You sound like you're justifying the reason you listen to it. Ever though about the times the things it told you to do things and not have something good come out?

I don't have any experience about it, but I hope you get better. You have to want to get better though, which is why you made the post, right?
 
The fact that you posted here seems to me that you know that last command went over the top. i think you rationalised the event later on as it being a 'test', but deep down you seem to be aware that something went haywire there, and that you, infact, didn't follow the voice there. This capability of still distancing yourself (even though it sounds as if you were/still are very close) leaves you some room and leads me to think you are having a drug induced psychotic break, which are not as serious in terms of recovery prognosis as opposed to say schizophrenia. though your mental health is seriously dangling by a thread at this moment. stop using any drugs, and go see a professional about this.
 
Can you maybe give us an update Dr DOB? What do you think about people's comments in here?
 
I wish I wouldn't have read this. Ploy for attention or not, it freaked me out.

I'd give you the "benefit" of the doubt...except for two things:

The foreskin remark. C'mon, really? REALLY?

and

Your post was oddly coherent for the most part. I suppose it may depend on the illness in question - but generally those who experience delusions such as yours tend to be too disoriented/disorganized to form coherent passages.

RIGHT?
 
Give us an update, other wise this seems like an attention ploy as others have said. And like someone else mentioned the fact that you didn't give any details about your sister or have any second thoughts about the nasty shanking you were about to attempt means something is definitely wrong and fucked up here.
 
For some reason this post remind me of the Doors song, The End. Sounds like some fuct up thinking man go see a doctor immediately. He will probably tranquilize you with anti-psychotics. I hope you realize you need to talk to somebody in person. Good luck.

peace.
seedless
 
Can I please remind everyone that this is The Dark Side, and we must give everyone the benefit of the doubt with threads like this. I don't care if the OP is making it up for attention or trolling, The Dark Side is here to help people so we must take every case as being serious. So please keep the sarcastic remarks out of here and be sensitive to people's plight.
 
Yeah exactly we have to give them the benefit of the doubt. Also people suffering from severe mental illness can actually be very coherant and sometimes it's not until something goes wrong in a bad way that you know they have it.
 
I wish I wouldn't have read this. Ploy for attention or not, it freaked me out.

I'd give you the "benefit" of the doubt...except for two things:

The foreskin remark. C'mon, really? REALLY?

and

Your post was oddly coherent for the most part. I suppose it may depend on the illness in question - but generally those who experience delusions such as yours tend to be too disoriented/disorganized to form coherent passages.


RIGHT?

Regardless of whether this guy is trolling or not. Clearly you know nothing about psychology. The thing with people with serious delusions such as ones like these is THEY ARE COHERANT. It could be your best friend, you would never know. Most serial killers were described as "the nicest neighbors ever.. never would have thought..." well that is kind of the same situation here.

OP You need help. You should check into a psychiatric hospital. They can start your meds, and adjust them so when you get home it is easier. I would not tell your family right away about what happened, if ever. I might even leave that out. You could ask them for help. I wish you the best of luck. Also if this is a joke thanks for the interesting read.

I like other posters wonder about the foreskin thing.. lol
 
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