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CcLefty7822

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It's crazy how some days I wake up and feel good and others I wanna just lay in bed. Just like you said Cire. I truly feel like methadone robs your soul. Cravings haven't been an issue. Boredom is one of the worst problems. I went to the gym for a few days it felt pretty good. Even there I'm bored after 20 mins. Just hope feeling happy comes back so I can enjoy being off this posoin. Seems like your doing great Cire your almost at 60 I'm sure it's a major goal of yours. Keep us posted
 
I have a question for Neversick or anyone that can answer . Do you think taking a benzo will just extend Paws? I'm at day 28 and just sick of the anxiety. It's probably my biggest issue. If I decide to take a ride to a store for coffee it takes me 10 mins to get out of the car it's terrible. I also have other issues like low energy and mood swings. I guess it could be worse as I'm writing this I'm realizing how far I've come in just 4 weeks.
 
So what i believe is the root of paws is a temporary widespread, but in an individual pan brain dysregulation. Depending on our unique dysregulation the effects will be subjective.

If its having a positive result on your methadone detox then id say its positive step. Depending on how long you have or will take this continuously will determine the degree you may struggle if you want to ditch this as well.

The whole deal with PAWS, not the symptoms of psychological addiction, but the physical and other.. confusing stuff, but the whole cure for the paws is time and effort. The system has to rebute.

Aspects that can promote this quickly imo are: exercise (done in the correct way for our situation), meditation or prayer, engagement in new thinking and or new complex movement, change in thought and behavior, nutrition.....

So the benzos might slow progress towards your ultimate goal.. but they might also make it easier to accomplish.


May want to consider starting a thread to document your story. I can move any relevant posts you wish there.
 
If you think it's best to move it I don't mind Neversick. I see what your saying about Paws there's really no way around it. It's just a different part of the withdrawal process and it needs to be dealt with one way or another. Since the anxiety part is making me not move forward I may have to take a low dose Ativan. I'll give it another day before making that decision final. It's all about the end game. Day 29 Sluggish - emotional - anxiety - not all is bad Im able to eat and sleep 6 hours a night. GL to all going thru it
 
Day 30 Other then sneezing there's not much physical left. But emotions are a wreck. Dealing with everything instead of just ignoring it or thinking I was right all the time is taking a toll. I guess this is my reality and it sucks bad. I feel so much more aware and it pisses me off that things are a mess. Sorry to sound so negative but it's just how I feel lately. The only thing that's saving me is knowing I'm not alone.
 
You are definitely not alone and PAWS can suck. But what makes it worse is thinking about it all the time. Part of the boredom is probably your brain not used to being regulated by anything except drugs-anything you can do to stimulate it will help.
 
Thanks for creating my own thread NSA. Tinker it def does suck but the more I read and get advice from you guys I know it's something that will pass. I just find it really hard to deal with things. I also have another half of this addiction that I live with my girlfriend-mother of my child. She works and is still using methadone. Using her job as her reason for not being able to stop. I stay home with my son which was fine but now that I'm off methadone I'm bouncing off the walls. So it's causing major issues between us. Is it wrong for me to push the issue for her to get clean now that I stopped?? Is it wrong that I see things way more clear and want better for our child? She says I think I'm all high and mighty bc I'm off for 30 days. I know this is a lot more personal then drugs related but I can def use some advice. Obviously there's tons more to this the main question is should I be pushing her to stop just bc I did??? I stopped bc I was ready but I'm not really willing to wait for her to be ready bc it might be years from now or never. Any advice helps ty CC
 
I'm not in your situation so I don't know if my advice is any good, but once you make the suggestion, stop. You aren't responsible for her sobriety. That is not something you can change or alter or force. Focus on yours. Don't distract yourself with her situation.
 
I agree Tinker I just focused on myself this week and the things I can control. It's around day 39-40 and I put together a few days of feeling pretty good. I don't want to get ahead myself bc last time I felt good I curled in a ball for a week. PAWS SUCKS There's no other way to put it. Anxiety is still there but it's not as bad as last week. I also feel like an air head very clumsy not on point. Reading everything on BL and realizing it's all normal stuff really helps a lot. Thanks to all that contribute
 
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